November 30th

Cas got his vaccines today! It's really crazy how expensive stuff like that is. Now I'm just at home doing laundry and chilling. I had some pumpkin pie. And I'm surprisingly sleepy for some reason.

Tomorrow should be pretty low key. I hope the weather is nice at least.

November 29th

Well work was certainly slow today, but I did homework so it was all right. I went to Ulta after work though, and that was not calm or relaxing. It was busy, and they were sold out of what I wanted, and then it took me like an hour to get home because there was an accident on the ramp I needed to take.

Cas is getting some vaccines tomorrow, and that’s all I have planned the weekend!

November 28th

Happy Thanksgiving! Brad and I went out to eat, and then we did a little shopping. And now I have a Christmas tree! Cas has already climbed it once, so who knows how this will go. Pigeon has been good though.

Work tomorrow...yay. It will be fine honestly - and I’ll do a bunch of homework. I’m not sure I’m going to do homework today. I should, but I’m super sleepy and my head hurts. I think because of how the rubric is weighted I can still get an A on it if I turn it in tomorrow, so that’s the plan now.

November 27th

Did a little homework (and about to do more), reorganized the perfume cabinet, and ordered some groceries. Not the most, um, out of the house evening, but still somewhat productive.

Tomorrow should be a nice, chill Thanksgiving. Gonna eat some turkey with Brad. Probably do some laundry. Maybe do some school work. Take a nice shower. Relax.

November 26th

A new day, a new medicine! My doctor was super apologetic about all the trouble I’ve had and for forgetting some elements of my medical history. I guess they are transitioning systems and some of my info wasn’t as readily available to her. So now I’m trying a new medication that isn’t a benzo OR and SSRI, which is great! It’s actually something my sister took for headaches before she figured out she had a chiari malformation. I’m really hopeful this one will work!

I have way too much homework for a short holiday week and it’s dumb.

November 25th

I got four wonderful new perfumes in the mail today and I’m super excited!

This morning was rough. My doctor also can’t seem to remember my medical history each time she messages me. Like...look back through our previous messages maybe? Today she asked if I was familiar with benzos. Why yes, last week I was telling you about how I was on them for four years. Now if this was something where I saw her in person last week and she had tons of patients and couldn’t remember, I guess that would be more excusable (though I still would have expected her to check her notes), but this is literally a message thread on a computer. She has documents I have sent her explaining my medical history. It would not be hard to peruse those before suggesting something to me. Anyway, I re-explained that I had been on benzos for four years and asked if there were alternatives available and haven’t heard back. I really like this doc in person but I also feel like if she had never prescribed me Buspar this akathisia wouldn’t have come back on my trip. And then the Viibryd and tapering off the Lexapro didn’t work either because last week I had serious SSRI discontinuation symptoms, the worst I’ve ever had. I’m just at a loss. Everything was fine before my vacation. I wasn’t doing perfect but I was managing. Now I’m a mess and I can’t get sorted out. It’s effecting my work, my social life, and even just my personal time. I can’t eat in public without my anxiety and other symptoms going absolutely crazy. I don’t like having to repeatedly grab the table to steady myself because I feel like there’s a tremor in my brain or like I forgot how to swallow. It’s all very scary and weird and also embarrassing and I just want to be back to normal.

November 24th

Hi friends! I saw Jojo Rabbit today and really enjoyed it. I definitely highly recommend it.

Gonna have a chill night and hopefully a chill week as well. (I wish I could make my tooth stop hurting though.)

November 23rd

Sleep debt will really get to you after a long week, especially when the weather is grey and rainy. I slept like...all day. And evening. I just slept. But you know what? It was all right. And now I’m waiting on some Chinese food to get here because $6 edamame is totally reasonable, right? $9 for dim sum is fine I guess but that much for edamame?? I am baffled. But it should be here any minute and I’m excited!

November 22nd

This morning was another rough one health wise. Having some SSRI discontinuation stuff. Brain zaps. Really frustrating and uncomfortable.

But I wrote a paper for school so at least I was productive.

Then I ate too much Indian food at dinner.

And now it’s cozy time at home.

November 21st

Good morning! I just took a long nap. Kinda in the mood for mac n’ cheese.

This has been a long week. Highs and lows and all that. But next week is short and easy and I’m excited!

November 20th

Crappy health day again, but school went well and I found an amazing new Thai restaurant near me so it’s all good. Now to shower and relax!

November 19th

Today was a tough health day. I didn't really feel able to do much of anything until after lunch, and even then I certainly wasn't feeling my best. But better than how agitated and just overall poorly I was in the morning. And I managed to get some schoolwork done - and got 100% on it - so that's encouraging. And I'm doing a huge perfume swap! My biggest yet! I am sending them EIGHT bottles!

November 18th

It’s already the 18th?! And today itself flew by so fast. Work was fast, this evening was fast, I don’t know where the day went. I’m going to try and sleep early though because I didn’t sleep well last night...I could fall asleep and then I woke up earlier than I meant to. I need to start reading before bed again to unwind. Except sometimes I get caught up in my books and don’t sleep, so I have to avoid that too.

...Thai food?

November 17th

Did I do much today besides sleep and go to Target? No, not really. I like lazy Sundays.

I don't think I have anything spectacular planned for this week - I've got school, and work should be pretty typical, and the weather is supposed to be all right. Hopefully CVS can finally figure out my prescription since it's been like two weeks now. Otherwise things are looking up to be pretty good!

November 16th

Community Day was pretty all right today! A little chilly but manageable. We'll see about the rest of winter.

I'm still craving Indian food. I had Panda Express tonight, and that sort of satisfied my craving for Chinese food, but only sort of. I want dumplings.

Oh, Cas has been accidentally kicking me in the head a lot while sleeping lately. Love claws in my hair. Very fun.

November 15th

Oh hi, I'm a brunette again! It's been like three and a half years! Let's get this hair healthy and whatnot, shall well?

Community Day in Pokémon Go tomorrow, but no weekend plans beyond that, I think. Kinda want some Indian food though.

I don't think there's much else to report today!

November 14th

Got a new tea tree oil kit from The Body Shop and have just learned that the toner may be a bit much for me. My face is so red! Hopefully it just takes a day or two to get used to it, but gosh. I look rough.

Gonna try some new Body Shop shampoo as well. Anyone tried the Shea butter shampoo line? Any luck?

Haircut tomorrow!

November 13th

Hi, I have acute akathisia! Which sucks but at least I know what’s going on with my health! Now I just gotta get better.

I took such a nap when I got home today. I feel better. I also still feel tired, but a lot less restless at least. Wintertime sure does weird things to my sleep schedule.

November 12th

I had a weird mental health day today - lots of restless energy and just general weird feelings.

Anyway, it’s cold and snowy here. Kinda in the mood to sleep in tomorrow and just bundle up in hella blankets. Oh, and both cats are there for cuddles of course. Hell, let’s bring some more cats. Cat party in my blanket fort!

November 11th

I did so much schoolwork today! Yay! And then the power went out at the office and I went home and napped.

Cas has tears in his eyes and he looks so sad and sleepy. I gotta give him extra hugs tonight.

November 10th

Today was pretty chill! I cleaned some more and did some laundry. Not too much else really. Now I’m going to try and actually sleep somewhat early! I mean honestly with DST it feels like it’s 10pm already anyway.

Slow work day tomorrow I’m guessing. And that’s okay with me!

November 9th

Am I blogging late because I got hyper-focused while cleaning? You betcha. Once I start I can't stop. Gotta make everything nice!

Now I'm hungry. I had Popeyes earlier and it was too spicy. I want mac and cheese but I also feel like I should have something...not so rich. Because that Popeyes was a lot.

Time for kitty cuddles.

November 8th

Boss took me out to lunch today. Was pleased with the food and also pleased that the table didn’t shake from my bouncy leg. Good table. Great construction. Love it.

I’m blogging at 8:30 because I’m kinda in the mood to sleep. Judge me.

I looked over my classes for the next five weeks. One seems pretty standard for a fast-paced class, but the other looks insane. Like, at least one paper due per week. It’s wild. Thank god it’s only five weeks.

November 7th

Well, today was a slow work day with some weird sleet-snow weather. I also had a headache all afternoon even though I took Advil.

So I went home and ate oatmeal and napped. And that’s okay.

November 6th

I don’t like how early the sun sets. I don’t like leaving work and feeling like I worked late because it’s getting dark out. And I don’t feeling like I have a shorter evening either.

I do love my cats though. They’re so good.

November 5th

Cat shelters are a good place to visit after a stressful morning. I met lots of good cats today! I met Charlie Brown who has a really old buff cream/orange boy and also Ray who was grey and white and skinny and had a weird ear and blue eyes! I love them both! And all the other cats too. And my cats!

November 4th

Prescription for new meds incoming, assuming I can afford them. Apparently my insurance doesn’t cover them, so that’s...great.

I’m kinda mentally tired after a stressful day of thinking I have to pay $300 a month for meds so I’m a little fuzzy in the brain. Also I had a dream last night about being conscripted into the Vietnamese army. So you know.

November 3rd

Someone didn't know the clocks were going back until she woke up this morning! Like, I didn't see anything about it anywhere. I'm out of the loop I guess.

Today was pretty fun! Brad and I went to a new arcade in town and I found out I'm not half bad at coin pusher games.

Doctor's appointment tomorrow morning and fingers crossed that I can get on the path to fixing my new health issues. I just want to get back to normal!

November 2nd

Today was fun and good! I went out and played some Pokémon Go and we met up with someone we had seen at a previous raid day which was really fun. Also I slept in which was...incredibly needed and wonderful.

Now I'm gonna eat some Wendy's.

November 1st

Well work was stupidly busy. I didn’t even take a lunch break, there was too much to do for this damn project we had to submit today. I am so glad it’s the weekend. I just want to cuddle up in bed and sleep in tomorrow and not think about spec books.

I finally scheduled myself a doctor’s appointment. Monday morning. Hopefully this will help me get sorted out.