July 31st

Whoosh, into August we go! Time to get myself a new place to live, eh?

I went out for drinks with some coworkers tonight. How fucking adult is that? Aside from the fact that I just got a Coke...and then got shit for it...why is it so hard to be a non-drinker? Sheesh. And then I make excuses so I sound more fun, which is dumb. But I hate telling people I can't drink "for medical reasons"...people are nosy.

July 30th

Just Pokémon Shuffle-ing away into the night...

Listen, I did laundry tonight like a freaking adult. So...I can play Pokémon Shuffle. Yeah.

July 29th

I had a fun lunch(? dinner?) outing with Brad today! we were going to get hot dogs, but the wait was entirely too long, so we went to a fun little pub instead.

Any recommendations for Apple laptop chargers would be super swell.

July 28th

I'm home! I was at my mom's for way longer than expected. But I have new shoes!

I'm tired and very glad to have tomorrow totally free.

July 27th

Work was entirely too slow today. Then I drove in rush hour for an hour and a half to go see my mom. I’m spending the night, so it’s not like I have to drive back tonight, but still. I don’t like driving. I do like my mom though. She’s really great.

July 26th

This month is going by pretty quickly. Big shoutout to Brad for reminding me that I need to ship my Reddit Secret Santa gift tomorrow. Still not totally sure when I'm going to do that, since I'm driving to my mom's house an hour and a half away right after work...so I guess during my lunch break? I hope there's a good lunch place by the post office.

Today was actually a pretty busy day at work. Lots of projects for me to do. Lots of mail to be sent out. I am pretty sufficiently tired.

I need more "casual Friday" clothes.

July 25th

Guess what! I got to walk my great friend Ace today! For the first time in like two months! I am so, so happy. I love Ace.

Happy Hump Day! Or whatever corporate people say!

July 24th

So Disney somehow fucked up and despite me ordering the July Mickey Memories plush, I got an email saying they couldn't fulfill my order. So that's bullshit. But as I learned today, they also haven't refunded me. So that's...extra frustrating. I'm not going to be collecting these plush anymore. I may even sell the ones I have...considering I could get several hundred dollars. Around $800-$900 if I sell my whole set! That's very tempting.

July 23rd

Sudden inexplicable onset of withdrawal symptoms at work? Is this protracted withdrawal? Good god getting off of Klonopin is a nightmare. I can't believe people use this stuff recreationally.

Cas is a tiny precious baby boy and I want to give him all the cuddles.

July 22nd

Oh, Sunday night. The work week looms ahead. And I ate entirely too much at dinner so that's been fun. On the plus side, Cas is pretty much in my lap right now. Well, he's kind of off to the side. But he's being cuddly.

I need a new skincare regimen. I have no idea where to start though. And for some reason, finding a dermatologist is hard.

July 21st

Rumor has it that tomorrow is going to be stormy. I was kind of originally planning on going to see my mom tomorrow, but I really don't like driving in the rain at all, especially not stormy weather. So...we'll see. Because I'd have to drive back tomorrow too...and two trips in the rain for a roundtrip total of just under three hours sounds...not ideal.

I got the July Mickey Memories collection! After much ado, of course, because Mickey Memories is kind of ridiculous. But hey, I did it.

July 20th

Oh hey, I might go visit my mom tomorrow! And today Brad and I visited puppies!

Also, American politics are real fucked up you guys. Jeez.

July 19th

I’ve been sick all day. It has not been ideal.

Do I...watch YouTube all night? Maybe.

July 18th

I've had a headache pretty much all day. I don't think I'm sleeping right. Also my chair at work just like...doesn't work for me. Maybe I'm too short, I dunno. But I can never sustain good posture in it.

Please send Cas kisses! He loves kisses!

July 17th

You know, sometimes I'm just as glad to find out a perfume I've been wanting to try isn't what I wanted at all...because it saves me the money and trouble of buying it. Of course it's a bummer when you wear something that you've been wanting to try and it's just sort of okay, but like...that's all right. Plus, knowledge gained is beneficial.

Anyway, Violet Blonde by Tom Ford isn't really my cup of tea. It's objectively a good fragrance but it's just a "like" from me. And that's okay!

July 16th

I’ve been at the animal hospital for three hours now. 90% of that time has been waiting. Cas has been diagnosed. I just need someone to give me his UTI meds. That’s all. And yet, I wait. For hours. Aye.

July 15th

Sometimes you try a new place for dinner and it's kinda...not great. But that's okay! You live and you learn! And you also don't take your garbage out to the street because it's nearly midnight and trash day will just have to be next Monday I guess.

I'm considering wearing a dress to work tomorrow, just to be fancy. Mondays can be fancy, right?

July 14th

I visited cats today! I love going to cat shelters. I love cats. How many cats is too many cats? There's no such number.

I also bought new shoes and new books! What a day! I am now officially the kind of person who loves the weekend.

July 13th

Ooh spooky, it’s Friday the 13th! Work was super hectic this afternoon. Lots of stuff to do. Or maybe it just felt that way because it was a slow morning.

I’m so glad it’s the weekend.

July 12th

Oh my god this workweek is slow. But I'm kinda teaching myself some new stuff in Excel, which is possibly useful.

I...am tired. So sleepy. I really want to take a long refreshing shower but that's basically not possible in this house. And I'm not super up for driving to Brad's house seeing as it is 10:15 at night.

Apartment hunting is stressful my dudes.

July 11th

I kinda thought it was Thursday there for a second. This week has been pretty slow if I do say so myself.

I've been thinking a lot about my Klonopin crap lately. This is mostly due to the fact that withdrawal is currently pretty unpleasant and I'm getting increasingly worried that I'm going to have another one of those bizarre, massive panic attacks I had that got me put on Klonopin in the first place. That was September of 2014, if you can believe it. I've been on this garbage for almost four years. I'm seriously looking into something like a detox facility for after I take my last dose, because I can only imagine it'll be kinda rough. But those places are usually for people with addictions or who overdose, etc. whereas mine is a chemical dependency that came from taking a prescribed medication exactly as it was prescribed...so I don't know what to do about that. My psychiatrist has never seemed like she cared much. She strikes me as the "you pay me, I'll write you a script" kind of doctor, not someone who is particularly interested in how I'm actually doing. She cares because it's her job, not because she's empathetic. Or so it seems.

Any advice is welcome.

July 10th

I made origami today. Work was...a little slow for a bit there.

Not much to report today. Kinda gross withdrawal symptoms still, but we’re getting through this, fam.

July 9th

I do not like this house and I would like to move please. I mean I guess being able to laundry is nice but also it smells like sulfur which is less nice.

Work has started off slow this week. Oh boy.

July 8th

Squirtle Community Day was super fun! Except I got a sunburn! My poor nose. I need to treat it better.

The new(ish) Lush store at Easton is super rad and huge and I love it. I wanna spend more time in there. And! I finally got to test one of Lush's perfumes, which was a treat. I tried Sikkim Girls, which is a like a dirty white floral number. I liked it!

Anyway, time to cuddle up in fresh sheets and with a new blanket. Hell yeah.

July 7th

My massage today was AMAZING. God, if I could live in that spa I probably would. I wanna get a facial treatment sometime!

Tomorrow I’m gonna go out and do a Pokémon Go Community Day! And I recruited Brad! We’re gonna catch so many Squirtles.

July 6th

Oh shit waddup I’m 26 today. I feel kinda old.

So work was slower than expected. But I got pizza afterwards, and now I’m hanging out with Cas. He’s such a good buddy. I wanna hang out with so many cats.

July 5th

Work was so slow today. Yeesh. But hey, it's my mom's birthday! Happy birthday, mom! You're great and I love you!

Also tomorrow is my birthday! Hell yeah.

July 4th

Sometimes you wear the wrong shoes and end up with three awful blisters on your feet. That's fun.

Work tomorrow should be interesting. I'm expecting a lot of phone calls. Hooooraaaay.

July 3rd

Portrait of a Lady by Frederick Malle

Notes include rose, incense, patchouli, cloves, black currant and raspberry. 

Rose as a note has always fascinated me. It has an incredibly long history, and it's come to symbolize so many things. Freshly cut, green dewy roses are sharp and fresh, powerful but still innocent in their cleanliness. A more powdery rose is classic, feminine, gently romantic. Dark, jammy roses are seductive and alluring and conjure up images of a true femme fatale - one who is strong but subtle in her ways.

All this from roses. It is regarded as perhaps the ultimate note of femininity. And here, it is the star. The star because it plays up multiple facets of the classic rose, all to perfection. This "lady" could be any number of ladies. A woman coming into her own, or a woman who knows her way, or anyone in between. That's why this rose is so masterful.

The funny thing is, I'm not usually a rose kind of girl. While I love it symbolically, the practical application of it sometimes feels contrived, synthetic, or unoriginal. And it's just never been my style, I suppose. But I think Portrait of a Lady can be anyone's style, and that's why I'm slightly enamored by it. I don't need a wardrobe full of roses of all varieties and occasions - but I do believe this is a scent worthy of being in my wardrobe.

July 2nd

I genuinely almost fell asleep at work today. I don’t think I was fully awake until after lunch. It was bad. But still, so worth it.

Question: why is my house unable to do internet? Most nights I’m relegated to 4G. I can’t wait to move. Seriously.

July 1st

Dessa was AMAZING. I was blown the fuck away my friends. But now I am incredibly hungry and tired so I’m going to bed.