January 9th

Thank you guys for sticking with me through such a hard week in my life. I'm feeling so, so much better today. Sure, I fucked up my sleep schedule, but it's because I was up late talking to a friend. I feel awful for messing up their sleep schedule as well.) I'm just so unbelievably grateful for a certain few people in my life. I do wish I had a bigger friend group, and I wish my current "friend group" was more people who actually cared about me instead of just socialized when they felt like it, but thats something that can change. Yes, it does suck that when I told social media that I was in a really bad place, I was met with a pretty deafening silence. But it also helps to give me perspective on things. And also to say "fuck it" when people don't show up. Those people have shown me how they feel about me, and it's good to know that. I'm learning and I'm growing and I know everything is going to be okay. Thanks guys.