Saturday, December 31, 2016

December 31st

I'm rereading old blog entries right now. In doing so, I learned that when I switched over to Eastern Time Zone, a lot of my previous entries (read: every single entry posted after 11:00 PM while I was in Central Time) now has an incorrect time stamp, making it look like all of those entries are from the wrong date, because in EST they'd have been after midnight. Honestly, I think I'm going to change my blog back to CST because I do not have time to sift through six years of blog entries to correct the times on them. It'll mess up the ones that I've posted since my move, but it'll just make them appear an hour earlier, which is no trouble. The most important thing is that the date is correct.

Reading my blog back is always kinda embarrassing because I rarely proofread before I post, so I notice all of the typos during the annual reread, and I'm usually doing my annual year-end post late at night so I can't be bothered to fix a lot of them. Oh well.

Right, so let's actually talk about 2016, shall we? I rang in the new year with Brad at my apartment back home in good old Minnesota, and then February was my first ever MAGFest! (MAGFest starts January 5th this time! It's like...less than a week away!) And of course, the biggest thing I did this year was move to Ohio. It's still a bit strange to me, to be honest, and there are a lot of things about Minnesota that I miss dearly! But Ohio has been such an adventure so far, and I've had a great person by my side to guide me through it all. 

While I don't particularly remember it being so, the start of last year was mentally pretty rough. I guess it's good that I don't remember all of the little things that had me stressed. My SAD is in full swing right now, and I'm incredibly stressed out about like ten different things, so that's...good.

I also started a new job here in Ohio, and while I don't talk about specifics that much, it's been a rollercoaster. I do miss some aspects of my old job at the hotel (like sitting down), but it was a tough job. Never underestimate how hard people in the hospitality industry work! 

One thing about 2016 that I'm really happy about is that I got to spend a lot of time with animals. I know that sounds really dorky, but it's true. I rode a horse, a camel, went to the zoo several times, held some snakes, went to a farm and held a baby lamb - hell, just yesterday I was at the zoo and I got to pet some animals and see a kiwi bird and so much more. I think I'd like to start doing animal-based volunteer work again this year. Since I don't have a consistent schedule it may be hard, but volunteering at the avian nursery back in Minnesota was so fulfilling, so I wanna spend more time with tiny cuties, be they feathered, furry, or other!

2016 has gotten a lot of shit from...everyone for being kind of a bummer year. (And that's putting it lightly.) There were a lot of notable celebrity deaths, global tragedies, and some orange goblin got elected to be president of the United States. While these events do affect me, I'm choosing not to dwell on them in this entry, as this blog is more about my day-to-day life than anything else.

I'm proud of myself for what I've done this year. Firstly, I've kept up with this blog for a crazy total of seven years now. I've also been a happy cat mom for two years, self-harm free for five, and just 24 years old in general, which I guess is kinda rad too. I moved to a whole new state and got a new job. I have learned so much about life and love. Even though 2016 wasn't the best year in many regards, from Cas having major surgery to just the general stresses of life, I have so many incredible memories to look back on. I made great new friends and I've been lucky enough to do so many things that make me happy. I want to do the same in 2017. I want to try and find happiness in both new and old places, and really work on myself mentally and physically.

I am ready for you, 2017. And you'd better believe I'll be blogging it.

Friday, December 30, 2016

December 30th

Best way to get ready for a new year? Why, a Brazilian wax or course! (TMI, I know, get over it.) It was my first time having one, and it wasn't that bad! Obviously kinda painful, but not as painful as I thought it might be. Plus my esthetician was super nice and made everything really easy.

Brad and I went to the zoo tonight as well! It was all lit up for the holidays and it was really pretty. Very chilly though. But I got to see a bear super duper up close (it was asleep with its nose against the glass), and a koala for the first time! We also got to go to the petting zoo! With goats and pigs and sheep and cows!

Thursday, December 29, 2016

December 29th

I made it through the day despite feeling awful when I woke up! I did it! And then I ate lunch and it didn't upset my stomach or anything! Plus five dollar cold pressed juice! (Totally worth it.) Now I'm catching up on like three days of YouTube backloggery and mentally preparing to get WAXED tomorrow, ahh! Somebody is gonna rip my hairs out! And it's gonna hurt! But I will be brave and probably cry or swear but it will be okay because I will be a smooth motherfucker.

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

December 28th

Work wasn't bad today! Some friends came to see me, it wasn't too busy, not bad! Tomorrow might be kinda long and/or busy but it'll be okay! And then I'll have a few days off which will be a nice little break before MAGFest. Hooray!

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

December 27th

This stupid week is so emotional and I'm sad about Carrie Fisher and everything is stressful. Too much on my mind. Too much to do and think about. My goodness. I hope you're all doing well at least!

Monday, December 26, 2016

December 26th

Well, I made it halfway to work today before I had to pull over at a gas station because I felt so ill. What a joy that was. I didn't even feel gross when I left my place, it was that sudden onset nausea bullshit. Aaand now I'm feeling like, vaguely better but still not well. It's super frustrating. I just want to feel well and also for my apartment to magically be clean. I feel like that would actually help a lot. I did laundry today at least.

Also, happy birthday to my favorite little sister! She's 20 now which is kinda freaky. She just doesn't seem like she's in her 20's, she's like perpetually in high school in my brain. Does anyone else with siblings ever feel that way?

Sunday, December 25, 2016

December 25th

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all had a lovely day! I got to be sleepy and hang out with Brad and Cas, and we even watched Mulan! Tomorrow I gotta be up before 5:00 AM though, so it's an early bedtime for me tonight!

Saturday, December 24, 2016

December 24th

Merry Christmas Eve! Brad and I had lots of fun visiting my mom. And the food was great too! Now we're just being sleepy fools and eating crackers.

Friday, December 23, 2016

December 23rd

Seasonal affect disorder plus emotional stress is really...stressful. Holidays, MAGFest, work, and's just a lot right now. I'm going to spend a good chunk of my night tonight reading advice blogs and also probably watching more Yuri on Ice. (I finished Magical Girl Raising Project!) I really need to clean my apartment, too. I think it'll make me feel better.

Brad and I are going to see my mom tomorrow for a Christmas dinner! I'm super excited! Plus I get to see Ellie, our old cat, for the first time in like...years. I hope she likes me better now than before. She's such a grumpy old lady, but she's still a cutie.

Thursday, December 22, 2016

December 22nd

It's a holly jolly week in retail! So many shopping people! So few parking spaces!

I'm gonna watch anime tonight and no one can stop me.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

December 21st

Blogging early so I can sleep early. I gotta get up by 5:30 AM tomorrow and I really don't want to! And it's a long shift too! I hope finding a parking spot is easy at least. Now I just need to stay up for a little longer so I can sleep through the night with no issues. Maybe Cas will be my cuddle buddy!

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

December 20th

Crazy work week: commence! Today wasn't too bad, but I got a pretzel dog from the food court after work and it made me feel really ill. I'm doing better now though! Right now I'm just catching up on today's YouTube uploads, and then I might see if anyone is streaming. Or I might play Pokémon. Who knows!

Monday, December 19, 2016

December 19th

Didn't end up doing as much as I planned today, but you know...I did a few things. That's better than nothing. I'm just struggling with the stupid wintertime sadness (MDD+SAD if you wanna get technical) so I'm just like...not motivated, and very sleepy even when I'm not tired, and I just feel like a blob. I'm thinking and hoping that after MAGFest things will start looking up though, as I'll be switching around some meds, plus the days are going to start getting longer again and I don't like short winter day. They mess with me. Speaking of, Cas has been messing with me all day. What an adorable little bother cat.

Sunday, December 18, 2016

December 18th

A certain boyfriend of mine is falling asleep listening to me type. Apparently it relaxes him - which is weird, because I get irritated if I can hear typing when I'm trying to do something. Oh well!

Today was the ultimate sleep-in lazy day. Tomorrow I actually have to do stuff, like clean and do laundry and whatnot, and then it's time for the work week that all people in retail fear: the week before Christmas. I have to be at work before 7:00 AM two days in a row, and the day after Christmas my shift starts at 6:00 AM. Thank goodness MAGFest is just around the corner! I got Cas all booked in his kitty hotel for the time that I'm away, and it's actually not even that pricey, despite the great reviews. It's pricier for dogs though, because they need walks and potty breaks and stuff. Cas is pretty chill.

Saturday, December 17, 2016

December 17th

I've tried writing this entry several times now and I can't figure out how to word anything I want to say. What it boils down to is that I feel like I try really hard and get little, whereas others don't try as hard - or don't need it as badly, or both - and get more. This winter has been very hard for me in so many aspects of my life, from finances to mental health. And while I feel like there are some people in my life who are supportive, others who I thought would be supportive have been...more absent. I've struggled my entire life with feeling like people are just pretending to be my friend or just being nice to me out of pity. I often feel like I'm annoying many of the people I consider friends. I'm also feeling bitter and resentful for somewhat petty reasons, and perhaps I'm selfish and ungrateful, but I just feel like the odd one out...again. I guess part of what I'm feeling is knowing that I'm no one's first choice as a friend. I don't mean to imply that I want to be everyone's best friend, but I do feel like I'm only someone's friend if I'm there with a group, or I'm the friend-of-a-friend, etc. Sorry if this is confusing, I just have way too many thoughts pent up and want to get them out, but also don't want to be too specific. But hey, tomorrow is another day.

Friday, December 16, 2016

December 16th

Concept: I am best friends with all the animals in the zoo and we get to hang out all the time.

Tomorrow is gonna be a looong day at work, and I have to get up way too early, but I'm gonna do it and I'm gonna kick ass and all that kind of stuff! Yeah! And then I'm gonna take a nap, probably! Or at least relax like I'm getting paid to do it.

Thursday, December 15, 2016

December 15th

Boy oh boy, I'm sleepy tonight. And I need some good rest before tomorrow. I have a feeling it's gonna be like Black Friday all over again. Hopefully a nice shower in the morning will wake me up so I feel ready to go. And hopefully my feet don't hurt too badly afterwards, because I work Saturday too. But for now, cuddles with Cas.

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

December 14th

I'm already ready for the weekend! Is that bad? Work wasn't even particularly bad, it's just that winter is finally actually happening, what with snow actually existing and temperatures being below 30°F, so I kinda just want to curl up with a book and hot cocoa. I've gotta get up early tomorrow - not too early, but still kinda early, so I'm going to try and get some good rest! Maybe if I can get my ass in gear really early, I'll get to work in time to get a smoothie beforehand.

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

December 13th

All right, so today was less stressful than expected. Thank goodness. However, it snowed a whole bunch so I didn't really get out much...or at know. I gotta get up early tomorrow just so I can clear my car off. So much snow! It's like Minnesota!

I've got eight more crazy shifts before Christmas! Wish me luck!

Monday, December 12, 2016

December 12th

Sleep in day today! And tomorrow! And Wednesday, though I do have to work Wednesday. And then Thursday! But not Friday because I work a hideously long and painful shift. That's the holidays for you. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Sunday, December 11, 2016

December 11th

Guten abend! I'm watching more Paper Mario auf Deutsch. I took a crazy nap earlier and I'm pretty sure I didn't move at all because my legs feel so tense, like I was curled up the whole time. Work wasn't that bad, but I couldn't fall asleep last night so getting up early was a pain. But I did it! I have tomorrow off so I'm gonna get some chores done, and maybe some other stuff too! Who knows! Keine Ahnung!

Saturday, December 10, 2016

December 10th

Work tomorrow, bright and early! I had a sleepy day today, so it should be fine. Last night I was all bummed out so I didn't sleep well...I fell asleep at 5 AM, after watching many episodes of a guy playing Paper Mario in German. Today was a better day though!

Friday, December 9, 2016

December 9th

I am really out of sorts lately. I don't know if it's stress, the seasonal change/SAD, something else, or a combination of all of these, but I just don't feel like myself. I'm anxious and depressed more often and I just wanna stay in bed, but I also feel shitty about staying in bed and really want to go do stuff. My sleep schedule is off. My eating schedule is off, and I'm not eating super healthy. I'm stressed about the holidays, MAGFest, relationships, money, work...probably more things that I can't even remember. I'm just on edge I guess, and I don't know what to do or who to talk to. (I need a therapist, really.) I just wanna sit out in the sun.

Thursday, December 8, 2016

December 8th computer won't turn on. Cas spilled a little juice on the trackpad last night and I thought I might have to get that part replaced...but now it won't even turn on. It wasn't even a lot of juice, and it only got on the trackpad. I'm confused and upset. This likely won't be cheap, and I don't have much money right now. What to do?

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

December 7th

Today is gonna be a mini-rant.

Why is it that when someone does something horrible, other people always go, "Oh, but they're always so nice!" or "They've never done anything bad to me!" Like...honestly? Just because they've never personally wronged you does not make them automatically a good person. I simply cannot comprehend how people, knowing full well that someone has done something really awful in their life, can still call that person nice for the sole reason that said bad thing did not directly involve them. Oh, they stabbed a guy a few years ago? Well, you know, it was in the past! Plus, they've never stabbed me! What's that? They guy they stabbed has permanent damage? And the stabber has no remorse? Oh, well...but they're just so nice and everything! I don't see any reason to dislike them! Oh, the stabbing victim was one of my friends? They'd prefer if I didn't associate with the person who stabbed them? No, I think they're just biased against that person! I'm going to ignore my friend's wishes because the stabber has never stabbed me personally, which means the victim is clearly biased!

People really frustrate me.

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

December 6th

My internet is down! I'm blogging from my phone! And I really want a snack!

Monday, December 5, 2016

December 5th

Been feeling kinda bummed out all day. The past few days really, but today was just a depressing day. And work wasn't even bad, i'm just in one of those moods. So lame.

Current mood: Wishing I had more nice shoes, like heels and such. But my feet are so small and narrow that finding nice shoes is really difficult!

I'm thinking I need to catch up on some Magical Girl Raising Project here soon. Also possibly start Yuri on Ice. Don't judge!

Sunday, December 4, 2016

December 4th

I just napped, so I'm feeling sleepy but also like I want to stay up for awhile. But I work in the morning, so I probably ought to get to sleep soon...I guess. If I go to bed too early though, I'm going to sleep too much and wake up groggy. But if I don't get to bed on time, then I won't sleep enough and I'll wake up and feel like shit. And finding that middle spot is hard!

On the plus side, Brad and I are going to see Spirited Away in theaters tomorrow!

Saturday, December 3, 2016

December 3rd

The reptile expo was so much fun! I got to hold so many snakes, and one lizard! Such friends! I'm so happy!

Friday, December 2, 2016

December 2nd

It's another Thousand Year Door night! I was feeling really down earlier so I'm glad to have a friend here. Tomorrow my mom is visiting, and Brad and I might go to a reptile expo!

Thursday, December 1, 2016

December 1st

I probably say this every year, but I swear, December totally snuck up on me. I think it's extra bad this year because the weather here is so drastically different. We've had no snow that's stayed on the ground longer than five minutes, and it's only snowed...twice? The weather is mostly really pleasant and despite the grey skies, it doesn't feel very...seasonal. Apparently Ohio isn't exactly known for having white Christmases, which actually makes me really bummed out. Winter may suck, but I love having snow for Christmas. It just makes the day seem so much cozier.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

November 30th

I did actual productive stuff today despite waking up and feeling like total crap! I even went to the DMV, which we all know is never the most fun experience. But now I have new tabs for my car so I'm super official and stuff.

Tomorrow is work and then...who knows? I get off at a kinda weird time so I may have to snag some Starbucks on the way out of the mall...

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

November 29th

Guys, we have to talk about Moana. (This will be spoiler-free!) It was amazing. I'd heard lots of positive feedback from my coworkers, the trailer looked really good, and all signs pointed to it being a great movie, and it was! I'm so happy! The animation was really beautiful, and Disney really made some strides towards making their 3D look more realistic while still making it stylized in a good way. The ocean was beautiful, the sand was beautiful, everybody's hair looked like goddamn real hair. I also really enjoyed the music, both instrumental and sung. My only musical complaint is that Moana's songs were all very similar/basically a reprise of her "main" song, but honestly it doesn't even matter because Auli'i Cravalho is an incredible singer. I feel like the cast was pretty damn solid throughout, but she really shone. Plot-wise there were of course some Disney tropes (and just movie tropes in general), but the movie was still very unique in many aspects. I get that the plot point of "person is supposed to become leader of their people but they want to follow their own heart" can seem overplayed, but this was done really well. There was also a moment near the beginning of the film that reminded me of my favorite scene in Mulan and I actually teared up a bit. It was just really touching.

Anyway, you guys all need to go see Moana.

Monday, November 28, 2016

November 28th

Work was super fun today! Also, I dunno why kids love getting stickers so much, but it sure makes me happy. I kinda want a sticker too. Maybe it's just a thing to enjoy stickers, huh?

Tomorrow: The DMV, grocery shopping, possibly other things pertaining to being an actual adult, and maybe Moana too.

Sunday, November 27, 2016

November 27th

Still tired, but I found some different shoes to wear tomorrow so I think that'll help. Still tired, still sore, and I'm even wearing my glasses. Still really wanna get a massage. I don't really have a ton of free time this week though, so we'll see. I still have to see Moana!

Saturday, November 26, 2016

November 26th

The fact that I had to work today was not at all fun. But I bought a giant stuffed Pua and he's the best cuddle buddy pig friend that I've ever had so I'm happy about that at least. Now I just need a foot rub really badly.

Friday, November 25, 2016

Thursday, November 24, 2016

November 24th

All right friends, it's time for this lady to get ready for work! Thanksgiving, Black Friday, I will conquer you!

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

November 23rd

Ahh, Moana came out today but I didn't see it! I have to wait til the weekend! I'm still super excited though. I better not hear a million spoilers at work.

I'm kinda trying to get started on making my sleep schedule a bit. Work from 8:00 PM tomorrow til 1:00 AM Friday, then 4:30-11:00 PM on Friday as well! So much work!

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

November 22nd

Well you guys, I did it. I did laundry. I really want to go grocery shopping tomorrow but I'm a little worried it's going to be insane since it's nearly Thanksgiving...but I could use some more food around here. At least I have milk.

Now, I'm going to play some Pokémon Sun because let me tell you, I caught the cutest little horse ever and named her Agro and I wanna be her best friend.

Monday, November 21, 2016

November 21st

I had caffeine tonight. It's just now hitting me. I gave up caffeine like a year ago so it is hitting me hard. I am so jittery! I didn't notice while I was playing Pokémon but I got up to pee and I ran into a wall of energy, but also I'm vaguely sleepy. Caffeine is weird! I feel weird! I just wanna play Pokémon!

Sunday, November 20, 2016

November 20th

Work was actually pretty nice today, sans the entitled lady who I had to deal with. It's retail. No one is more important than anyone else, even if you "threaten" to call our corporate offices.

Tomorrow is a sleepy day and a Pokémon day! And hopefully a laundry day, if I'm feeling motivated. Right now I'm mostly feeling hungry!

Saturday, November 19, 2016

November 19th

It's another Paper Mario: TTYD night! I'm getting sleepy though, it's late! But Brad is making good progress.

Work tomorrow, then a brief respite before Thanksgiving and Black Friday madness!

Friday, November 18, 2016

November 18th


Thursday, November 17, 2016

November 17th

Tomorrow is Pokémon!! TOMORROW!

I did not sleep well at all last night. My head hurt SO badly. Like, so badly that I couldn't fall asleep. My sinuses are all funny and my neck was in knots so I was not happy.

But NOW I'm happy!

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

November 16th

Work was so merry today! I ended up staying an extra hour so I was crazy hungry by the end of my shift, but I met some cute kids and danced around to songs from The Nutcracker so it's all good. Plus we have holiday hats! It really does help put you in the mood when you've got peppermint swirls on your head.

Tomorrow is a sleep in day! And I'm gonna see my mom this weekend, which is awesome because I haven't seen her in like...many months!

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

November 15th

Brad and I finally finished season three of Legend of Korra. I remembered loving it, but DAMN it is so good. Tomorrow is work and maybe more Korra or Paper Mario!

Monday, November 14, 2016

November 14th

Reese did such a fun stream tonight! And Pokémon Sun and Moon come out on Friday! It is a good week for gaming!

I also picked up an extra shift at work, so more money! Gotta buy them holiday presents!

Sunday, November 13, 2016

November 13th

No zoo today after all, but neither Brad nor I slept well so we just had sleepy times instead. And now Cas has gotten a burst of energy! Right as I'm getting cozy! Pretty sure I'm gonna put on some perfume (Kiste from Slumberhouse) and have myself a peaceful evening. I'm going to have a productive day tomorrow, so I need my rest!

Saturday, November 12, 2016

November 12th

Hi friends! Brad's over, we just got done playing some Paper Mario: TTYD. The beginning is kinda slow and we're not exactly at my most favorite part of the game, but it's fun seeing Brad play it. I think he'll like Flurrie.

Tomorrow is a do-nothing day, so Brad and I might go to the zoo! He hurt his foot though, so possibly not. We shall see!

Friday, November 11, 2016

November 11th

Do you ever just...spend a lot of time on the Sephora website? There's a few products I really want to pick up, but they're online only so I can't go to the store for samples. I know I can return things if need be buuut they're quite expensive and I wasn't able to shop during the VIB Rouge sale so I'm on the fence. They're both skincare items, both of which have amazing reviews especially for my skin type, and you do get a lot of product...but then I'd have to throw down a bunch of money all at once so I'm waiting...for now.

Thursday, November 10, 2016

November 10th

I had such a nothing day today. I really have messed up my sleep schedule, probably because of DST and staying up so late on Election Day, and now I just feel out of it. My appetite is off, I'm sleepy during the day, all that jazz. I'm stressed, the weather is gloomy...I just want to be under a blanket, even when I'm not all that tired. My motivation is just not there. I did do a good cleaning of the bathroom tonight though, so there's that. I work tomorrow morning, so hopefully that will help get me back on track as well!

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

November 9th

The day after Election Day. Trump was elected. It is a very painful reality, but we shall survive and emerge stronger.

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

November 8th

Well, tonight is stressful! Oh Clinton, please pull through. I don't want Trump. Please.

Monday, November 7, 2016

November 7th

Sorry for the lame blog entry yesterday! Blogging from my phone is extra annoying now that the Blogger app is no longer available, so my on-the-go entries tend to be kinda shit. Work last night was really fun until we were scrambling to put up holiday decor at almost 11:00 PM so, you know. The retail life!

Tomorrow is the day! Cas gets his stitches out! I bet you thought I was going to say the presidential election, huh? It's that, too, but that's scary and I also work quite late and won't get home til around 10:30 PM, plus I voted early, so it sort of seems like I'm missing a lot of the standard election day stuff. But I'll definitely be glued to the TV once I get home. Please America, don't make bad choices.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

November 6th

Long day (well, night) at work so I'm just gonna say hello and go to sleep!

Saturday, November 5, 2016

November 5th

Today was stressful and I don't even wanna go there. But on the bright side, after things got sorted out, Brad came over and we played a Pokémon board game and some Monkey Ball!

Friday, November 4, 2016

November 4th

My hair is looking so much better today! And it's curly! I really think it's Sunday today for some reason.

I just want a mega Tsum Tsum plush.

Thursday, November 3, 2016

November 3rd

I accidentally took a weird nap today. I don't even know what time I fell asleep, but I was having really vivid dreams, and when I woke up the sun had set and I had no idea what time it was or if it was even the same day...very disorienting. I'm watching some streams now but I do want to try and sleep fairly early tonight since I have work early tomorrow!

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

November 2nd

I voted today! Really nice to skip the lines (mostly) and of course, to have a say in this crazy election.

Do you ever take a super long nap and wake up to find out your cat used his cone to get at his sutures and there's blood on his cone and the incision site? Yeah, he's going back to the vet tomorrow. These past two weeks have really been stressful and apparently I can't catch a break. I'm sure he feels pretty shitty too, being stuck in a cone in the bathroom, but I'm really struggling too. I just want him to be back to normal.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

November 1st

We made it to November, friends! And I got to see Pokémon: The First Movie in theaters! It was a one day only affair, and I'm so glad I was able to go. I forgot how super 90's the intro is. Kinda cringe-worthy, but the rest of the movie makes up for it! It's such a good score, and Mewtwo is really interesting and Veronica Taylor is the best voice actress ever.

Monday, October 31, 2016

October 31st

Spoopy Halloween, friends! I didn't do anything particularly Halloween-y this year, but tomorrow I'm gonna get my hair done, which is scary, right? I'm just not enjoying the color since I keep saying "cool-toned, please!" and getting warm, even brassy hair. It's not worth the price I'm paying, either. So I'm switching things up!

Cas knocked his entire litter box over into the bathtub today. He's...not really loving the fact that he lives in the bathroom right now. I feel bad for him. Plus he can't clean himself so he's kinda stinky and matted. I trimmed a little of his fur myself but I might see if his vet can actually shave some more off. I did buy some waterless shampoo and cleaning wipes for him though, so he's a little better. His incision is healing well, at least!

Sunday, October 30, 2016

October 30th

I hope you all had a good weekend! Brad and I stayed up super late playing Super Monkey Ball 2 and it was really fun. Then the levels got hard and we went to bed. As you do.

Cas is doing pretty well! I have to buy some of those kitty cleaning wipes for him because he's not able to clean himself with his cone on and he smells kinda funky. His shaved tummy is so cute though!

I'm on day two of no lorazepam at all and I'm managing okay! Usually day two or three is when things get wonky, and while I can tell that I'm a little more jumpy than usual, I'm hanging in there. Hopefully the rest of the week will go smoothly as well!

Saturday, October 29, 2016

October 29th

Cas got to come home today! Just in time for National Cat Day! He has to wear the cone of shame for two weeks and he hates it, I feel so bad! He's all sleepy, too. 

Brad is playing Super Monkey Ball 2 blind! He's pretty good at it, I'm impressed!

Friday, October 28, 2016

October 28th

Today was such a day! I slept in so much and work was busy and then I had falafel! And now I'm very sleepy but will most likely become less sleepy and then stay up far too last night.

I want to try squid ink pasta.

Thursday, October 27, 2016

October 27th

Cas went back to the doctor today, and he'll be getting surgery tomorrow, specifically a perineal urethrostomy. I'm worried about him, but I also know he'll be okay. He's a tough little dude.

I just had really sudden, scary vertigo while Brad was here and now I just want to be calm but my anxiety-brain is freaking out. Luckily I don't work until 3:00 tomorrow and it's a short shift, so I can take it slow tonight.

Plus, I've got my goat.

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

October 26th

Last night was stressful, but today is going better. Cas' drugs have wonky side effects!

I am hungry though! What do I eat?

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

October 25th

My sweet kitty is back home at last! He looks so much better and I'm so happy. I have to monitor him for awhile and he has to eat special food from now on, but I'm really just glad he's doing well. He's shaved all funny, too! He's got little oven mitts!

Monday, October 24, 2016

October 24th

My shoulder and head still hurt a bunch. I feel like I haven't the biggest knot in my muscles and I'm getting pretty damn tempted to get a massage. Nothing fancy, but I'm really uncomfortable and I need some help.

It's lonely without Cas here. I miss him so much. He's doing okay but I just want him to come home so we can cuddle.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

October 23rd

Cas is spending the night in the kitty hospital. He got all blocked up and he was in a bad way, but apparently he's feeling a little better now. I miss him a bunch. Plus I have a horrible headache from sleeping funny. I just wanna cuddle Cas and an ice pack and be cozy.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

October 22nd

Today I got a hug from a tiny child in a dinosaur costume and also learned that an electric eel is not actually an eel!

Cas is having tummy troubles so I'm trying to keep him hydrated. Poor baby!


Friday, October 21, 2016

October 21st

I am a sleepy sheepy! Also, speaking of sheep, I GOAT MAIL. Yes indeed, Brad sent me a goat! I love my new goat! I named her Henrietta. She's a brown Nubian goat!

Whooooo's getting excited for MAGFest? THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE.

Thursday, October 20, 2016

October 20th

Brad and I just watched Holes! That is such a damn good movie, truly. And one of the best book-to-movie adaptations I've ever seen.

I do miss Cas when I stay the night at Brad's, even if Cas sometimes gets needy at 5 AM. He's so cute though!

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

October 19th

I didn't even watch the debate tonight. I don't even want to hear Trump speak another word. I was also sleeping through most of it because I was really lethargic earlier. Now it's storming like crazy so I'm just being cozy. I might watch a movie tonight. No work tomorrow or Friday, so I have some down time!

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

October 18th

Hello friendos! I did a whole lot of nothing today, including completely forgetting that I was going to do laundry. Whoops. My work uniform should be okay for one more wear though...eek!

I am sleepy and I have the coziness kitty on my tummy. Bedtime sounds nice.

Monday, October 17, 2016

October 17th

Work was hard! My legs really hurt! So I'm gonna stay up late watching old Game Grumps videos. Watch out, Endless Ocean.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

October 16th

Decreasing my lorazepam again really messed me up today. Good old anxiety and even some derealization. Fun times! Even now I feel really off. I don't like not feeling like myself.

Dear work: Please me easy tomorrow. I could use a gentle day while my body processes its chemical changes. I already have to get up way too early, so...go easy on me!

All things considered, at least Cas is looking especially poofy today.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

October 15th

Work was crazy today! My legs hurt so badly! And I'm sleepy! I'm gonna sleep in so hardcore tomorrow.

Having no money is stressful. Yipes.

Friday, October 14, 2016

October 14th

Pretty slow day today. But tomorrow is work, bright and early! I haven't gotten up for work this early since the hotel! Luckily it's not an eight hour shift, anyway. So, off to bed!

Thursday, October 13, 2016

October 13th

Sometimes you go to Sephora to return some things and leave with more stuff than you brought in. Whoops. But I tried the Tatcha silk moisturizer last night and it was absolutely incredible, so I figured I'd get the little discovery set. It gets great reviews, and I already know I love the moisturizer, know. Then I bought some lipstick because I'm a bad person. A bad person with fabulous lipstick.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

October 12th

Hi friends! My shift at work tomorrow got canceled so I don't know what to do! I have some things to return to Sephora so I guess...that?

Brad and I just watched The Prince of Egypt! God, that movie is so good. I got chills like 20 times. So beautiful!

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

October 11th

An excerpt from my Facebok status from today...

In honor of National Coming Out Day...
As someone who has only dated men, I assumed this meant I had to label myself as straight. However, over the past year I have learned more about and explored my sexuality and identity, and I would like to officially come out and say that I am bisexual.
I have learned so many important things about bisexuality this year and I am so happy to be part of this community. 
Being in a relationship with a man does not make me any less bi. It is simply how things happened, and I am extremely happy in my relationship.
So, to all of my bisexual friends out there, please remember:
Your sexuality is valid even if....
- you’ve only been in relationships with someone of a different gender
- you’ve only been in relationships with someone of the same gender
- you’ve never had sex with a guy
- you’ve never had sex with a girl
- you’ve never had sex at all
- you’re heteroromantic
- you’re homoromantic
- you’re aromantic
- you find yourself preferring one gender over another

Your feelings are valid. Your sexuality is valid. Do not let people shame you or tell you otherwise.

Monday, October 10, 2016

October 10th

Well, phooey. I'm not sure if it's a coincidence or if I've got a little tummy bug, but my dinner tonight didn't sit well with me...again. My other meals today were fine but for whatever reason, not dinner. That was four hours ago and I just had some graham crackers with honey and peanut butter because I was feeling so hungry, and while I don't feel as bad as earlier, I'm still not feeling all the way great. I'm going to try and get some fresh produce and such from the store tomorrow and have a really healthy eating day and see if that sorts things out.

No real plans for tomorrow though so I'm just going to try and get some good rest, stay hydrated and cuddle with Cas.

Sunday, October 9, 2016

October 9th

Work was pretty easy today, and Brad and I went for a really pleasant drive afterwards! Unfortunately I'm feeling a bit unwell now...I blame the Dippin' Dots I ate earlier. I love them, but sometimes they just don't agree with me.

I have tomorrow free! What should I do? Adventuuuures!

Saturday, October 8, 2016

October 8th

Today was so nice! I got to sleep in, and aside from a bad dream I actually was pretty cozy all night, and slept really soundly! No headache! Brad's bed sorted me out. We watched the latest Bo Burnham special on Netflix last night and it was honestly kind of disappointed, but there were still some good bits.

So, the Renaissance Festival...was super cool. I'd never been to one before, but it was pretty much exactly what I expected. Lots of people selling cool stuff, lots of food, and lots of amazing costumes. I would love a costume of my own, but they're really expensive! But Brad bought me a really lovely circlet so I still felt fancy.

Oh, and I rode a freaking camel. He was so, so soft! I wish I could be his best friend!

Friday, October 7, 2016

October 7th

I'm having a fun evening with Brad! And tomorrow is the Ren Faire! I'm super excited, but also hope my ongoing headache will go away. I think I've been sleeping funny! I gotta get sorted out!

Thursday, October 6, 2016

October 6th

Work was much easier today! No mugs!

My head is hurting and my face is itching! And it's warm in here! But I bought a cozy flannel today so all is well.

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

October 5th

Work was crazy today! I moved like, a hundred mugs! And hardware! Now I am extra sleepy and I ate too much Cinnamon Toast Crunch. I gotta get up early again tomorrow, but hopefully no more mug moving.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

October 4th

My hair is so fabulous and blonde! I mean, it's been blonde. But now it's more blonde!

I saw some cutie raccoons tonight! I wish I could hang out with them. But I have to get up early tomorrow for work!

Monday, October 3, 2016

October 3rd

Got mah hurr did today! I have to go back tomorrow to get the roots re-toned, but it's not the end of the world. I think after that it'll look fucking amazing.

Cas has a piddle problem. He's starting peeing outside of his box, but only sometimes. And he doesn't pee on the carpet, he pees on...any fabric he can find. Or a box that I got in the mail. So they daybed, some clothes, a paper towel that fell under the table...I don't know what's going on but it's been happening for over a week now. I got him a second litter box and new litter so he's got more options, hopefully that will help. If not we gotta go to the vet and get him checked out!

Sunday, October 2, 2016

October 2nd

Well, today didn't go as planned. Bit of a roller coaster really. Mostly petty stuff so I won't go into details (though I did get a hug from an adorable child), but no cat café. I'm bummed out, but I was more bummed out earlier which is why we didn't go in the first place.

I'm gonna watch Zootopia now since it's on Netflix, it looks good, and I feel like my job requires it.

Saturday, October 1, 2016

October 1st

Happy October! Brad and I are going to a cat café tomorrow! Yaaay!

Friday, September 30, 2016

September 30th

Tomorrow is the first day of Halloween! ;) I'm so excited for autumn this year. Minus the stink bugs, autumn here is really nice! And I love fall clothes! Give me all the sweaters and leggings and boots!

Thursday, September 29, 2016

September 29th

You know what Ohio has that Minnesota does not? Stink bugs. A lot of stink bugs. There was one that had been hanging out on my ceiling for like a week and I thought, gee, I should get rid of that thing. I'd left it there not wanting to agitate it, but I figured by this point it wasn't going to fly at me or anything. Turns out it was still alive, despite not moving for a week, and even though I grabbed it in a tissue, I got stink on me. Let me tell you something. I've gotten ladybug stink on me. I've gotten boxelder stink on me. They do not compare to a stink bug. This motherfucker smells like bad cilantro, and I hate cilantro. And the stink does not come off. I've washed my hands like five times with five different things, exfoliated, used two different lotions...and it's only just finally starting to wear off. I hate stink bugs. They are loud and they swoop at you and then they make you smell bad. Almost makes me miss mosquitoes!

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

September 28th

There's a cat café in Columbus! It just opened! Brad and I are going on Sunday!

Work was actually really fun today. I love adorable children.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

September 27th

How do you blog with a cat in your lap? *casually sets laptop on top of Cas* Perfect.

Had kind of a downer day for no reason in particular. I went out for a little bit, but it was kind of a blah day. Nothing of importance to note, I'm afraid! Tomorrow is work (and returning ill-fitting clothes to H&M) and then probably just chilling with Brad. Hopefully we can finish out season three of Legend of Korra. We got so caught up in other things! I'm just ready for Kuvira to show up, really.

Monday, September 26, 2016

September 26th

Well that debate was an absolutely surreal experience, wasn't it? I honestly don't know what I'm going to do if Trump is elected president. It would be one of the greatest failures in American history. (And we've had a lot of failures.)

At least work was good today. And so was my smoothie. It's the little things.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

September 25th

My face feels better today! Thank goodness! It's still a little warm and itchy but oh my gosh it feels like paradise compared to yesterday! I also finally have a proper lamp in my living room! Progress on all fronts!

Tomorrow is work and then...exploring, maybe!

Saturday, September 24, 2016

September 24th

Ahh, fun times. Woke up feeling dizzy, lightheaded and nauseous. And my face? Still itchy. I tried some different lotion (hydrocortisone and aloe) but it didn't help at all. I ended up rinsing it all off and my face actually feels less itchy, finally! However, it is VERY warm, like I'm running a fever. I'm guessing it's still the allergic reaction or whatever is going on but I'm not sure. I'm not warm anywhere else. Also, I bought a new thermometer...and it doesn't work. So I can't check my temperature. Brad came over for a bit though and we got back into watching Legend of Korra. We were going to eat dinner together but for some reason I never got hungry. I did eat a little but I have like no appetite. I'm pretty sure I'm going to go to a minute clinic kinda place tomorrow just because I'm feeling so out of sorts. It's very frustrating and also scary, not knowing what's wrong or why it happened. I've done skin tests of face products I've used recently but no luck. So...I don't know. I'm just going to try and have a calm evening!

Friday, September 23, 2016

September 23rd

Hi hi! I am having a strange allergic reaction and I don't know what to! But last night's slightly itchy face has turned into a very itchy face and a rash and sadness! I tried some colloidal oatmeal which helped for a second but not anymore. My Allegra didn't help either. I have no idea what caused it! But even my earlobes itch! If it's not better tomorrow I'm gonna see a doctor since Brad and I are already going to get our flu shots. SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS

Thursday, September 22, 2016

September 22nd

Long day today! And I'm feeling sleepy! My dad and I had a great dinner though (quiche!) and tomorrow we may swing by the mall. I hope you're all doing well!

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

September 21st

My doctor's appointment went well! Thank goodness! She's very supportive of me dropping these benzos like a hot plate and getting on something much better for me.

My dad's coming tomorrow and I need to clean! But I'm really tired! Eep!

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

September 20th

Had a bit of an unhappy stomach earlier, but I just noticed that Cas is at the foot of my bed and it made me a million times happier.

Last night was so special. I just feel really grateful. Tomorrow I meet with a doctor to discuss my future and benzodiazepines and who knows what else. I'm going to try and carry this confidence to that appointment. I deserve it.

Monday, September 19, 2016

September 19th

It's a good thing I'm home before midnight, because the Blogger app just keeps crashing. What a pain.

Aside from that, today was so wonderful! Brad took me out to dinner and to the beach! He also bought me a new camera and ahhhh I do not have to word to express my excitement or gratitude. We took lots of pictures of the moon because it was super beautiful tonight, and we just kind of stood out in the lake together. I love him a lot, I really do.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

September 18th

Happy Sunday! Work was actually really fun today. Lots of cute kiddos and fun parents, plus it was just the right length for a shift. I love that. I was even kinda naughty and got Starbucks afterwards. I'm trying to find more drinks out there besides smoothies that have no coffee and are caffeine free, which is hard! I miss chai tea lattes so much. I might have one anyway...tomorrow is a big day! I'm not sure what all I'm doing yet but Brad and I might go to the beach or rent a paddle boat or something. Maybe we can even find some exciting wildlife! Maybe I can hug a bird!

Saturday, September 17, 2016

September 17th

It seems the Blogger app likes to crash in iOS 10. Brilliant. 

Brad and I went for a little swim today! It was super fun! I work tomorrow so I'm just having a relaxing evening. Yay!

Friday, September 16, 2016

September 16th

I've had a quiet day today, so I don't really have much to talk about once again! Just hanging out with my cuddle bug Cas (there was a not-so-cuddly bug on my ceiling earlier) and watching YouTube at the moment.

I've got a lot of cleaning ahead of me this week, as my dad is coming to visit on Thursday. Cleaning really intimidates me, and my room isn't exactly what I would call clean. Brad has been so helpful though and really helped with tidying up the living room, and I'm so grateful! We may very well do some more cleaning together tomorrow!

Thursday, September 15, 2016

September 15th

I slept so weirdly last night and my neck and shoulders have been so tense all day, and my head hurts! I really want to go get another one of those volcanic stone massages.

Not too much to blog about today! I'm just sneezy and achy, but I'm catching up on YouTube so all is well!

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

September 14th

Work was stressful. It's going to be even more stressful tomorrow. I don't want these health issues to affect my work and I'm scared they will, and scared to talk about it. It makes me feel so guilty, like I'm not trying hard enough to be a good employee. I just want everyone to understand that this is beyond my control but I just feel so bad since I'm new and I'm already causing issues. Or at least I feel like I am. 

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

September 13th

Last night was rough. It was scary. Never before in my mental health struggles have I thought, "I don't know how to do this- I can't do this." The impossibility of overcoming what I'm learning is going to be an extreme hardship seemed so real. I researched benzodiazepine withdrawal more, and it's so much worse than I thought. Six months of brutal recovery is the minimum, with a whole plethora of symptoms. And unlike many illnesses, it's not a case of it starting horribly and gradually getting better- it's an unpredictable roller coaster of symptoms. I'm terrified of how that will affect my job and my life. I've had anxiety since I was 8, depression since 12, and yet just now do I feel like I've been diagnosed with a terrible condition. Some people experience withdrawal for years. I don't want to be one of those people. I so desperately want this to just come and go. I felt like I was finally going to get a handle on my life here. I was going to get a degree, get a job, and enjoy my life. Now I'm scared of months, even years being taken from that goal. I felt like I was making progress and now I feel worse. Please, if I can ask one thing, it would just be for love and support. 

Monday, September 12, 2016

September 12th

Friends, let's have a mental health chat. Now, I know this is the sort of thing you're not supposed to talk about on the internet, at least not without some form of anonymity. But I am not ashamed. And if somewhere down the line, a company reads my blog and decides not to hire me because I take medications or because I have depression or anxiety, then that's not really a company I'd want to work for anyway. Being open about my health gets a weight off my chest and can ease the anxiety, and I think it's so, so important to take away the stigma from mental health issues.

As some of you may recall, two years ago I had what I now call a panic episode. It was not a panic attack- it lasted several days, worsening each one, until I was taken to the hospital by an ambulance. That summer, the summer of 2014, I decided (along with my doctor) to stop taking Lexapro in favor of a different SSRI. (I can't remember if it was Prozac or Cymbalta.) I thought things were going okay until I gradually started feeling more anxious in early September. At first it was just general anxiety feelings- nervousness, restlessness, agitation, etc. Some mild nausea. General unease. That spiraled into me being so agitated and restless that I had to be moving at all times. I was constantly shaking my hands, wiggling my fingers, kicking my legs, anything to keep moving. I felt like if I stopped, by heart would go into overdrive. I felt like I was going to burst. I grabbed at my skin, because I constantly felt like I was going to pass out and need to feel something in order to stay grounded in the real world. I would pinch my arms to keep from panicking. I needed to feel something or I felt like I was going to slip away, like nothing was real. It was terrifying.

I called my doctor, but got the voicemail of the resident nurse. He called back saying that I should switch back to the Lexapro, as clearly my new medication was not working. Now, before I had switched, I was taking 40mg of Lexapro a day. That's a pretty high dose. My new medication was also an SSRI. So I took 40mg of Lexapro the next morning, after very little sleep, and without tapering off my old medication or back on to Lexapro. Within an hour or two, I knew something wasn't right. Not only was my panic episode increasing in magnitude to the point where I was having trouble breathing, but I also felt incredibly dizzy and nauseated. It was then that I called for an ambulance- I knew full well I was in no state to drive a car.

The ambulance ride was okay, all things considered. The first thing I told the paramedic was that I got motion sickness very easily, and that riding backwards in a vehicle with no windows was going to be an issue. I was given intravenous anti-nausea medication and managed to make the whole ride, bumpy as it was, without incident. I also had an oxygen mask, which made me feel a lot better.

The ER was a different story. I was left in a room, alone, for a very long time. I didn't have my oxygen mask. I thought I was going to pass out at any moment. I paged for a nurse, who told me to try and relax and turned off the lights. Needless to say, this did not help. The only way I got through that agonizing period of time was listening to a podcast on my phone to provide just the slightest distraction. Eventually a doctor came in and gave ma shot of something, which calmed me down almost instantly. Since I had slept a total of about three hours in the past two days, I fell asleep. My mom came to get me, and I was sent home to get some rest. I was prescribed Klonopin and Ativan, two benzodiazepines.

My doctor back home was out of the office, so I saw a different doctor. He explained that I had essentially overdosed on my Lexapro since there was already another SSRI in my system, and it had caused serotonin poisoning. I was taken off Lexapro for a month, and just took the benzos. That month was wild. My emotions were so different than anything I'd known in so long. I've been on Lexapro for about ten years, and this month without it was bizarre. I was emotional about everything. I just felt things differently.

Two years on, and I'm back on Lexapro, ever since November of 2014. However, I'm also still on the benzos. Those aren't supposed to be long-term medications, but my doctor kept prescribing them. And now I'm in a very weird place. No doctor here will prescribe them to me, and I'm on my last refill. I've been trying to taper off of one of them this past week, but last night I started experiencing withdrawal symptoms. (I'd always get minor withdrawal symptoms if I missed a dose, but this was full on anxiety, nausea, insomnia...all that jazz.) I wasn't able to go to work today. I still feel pretty awful, but more than that I feel very afraid.

I'm afraid of going off of these meds and experiencing withdrawal. I'm scared of having another panic episode. I'm scared of not being able to work and I'm scared of being fired. I'm worried I won't be able to get off my benzos, and I'm worried I won't find a replacement that keeps my anxiety at bay. I feel like I'm running out of time to get new medications, and I'm incredibly stressed out.

Dependence. Withdrawal. Getting worse before it gets better. These are all things I fear are coming. I feel so helpless and unsure of what to do. So for now, I'm just seeking good vibes from you guys and the universe to help me through this.

Sunday, September 11, 2016

September 11th

Tomorrow is shaping up to be another early morning for this lady! And I don't even get to go to Sephora! (I guess I could go, technically, but I have absolutely no need, or money.) I did recently find out that a perfume I've had my eye on for at least a year now may be getting reformulated though (from EDT to EDP) so I'm seriously considering buying it. It's Misia by Chanel, which does mean it's not cheap, but I've spent the same amount on another perfume before, and honestly I like Misia better. It reminds me of Putain des Palaces by ELDO a bit, but it's got this gentle fruitiness to it that I just love. It's the only "candied" violet scent that I really enjoy. Most others push the fruit to hard and it becomes a syrupy sweet mess. Looking at you, Insolence! I have enough samples of the other scents I like from the Les Exclusifs line that I don't feel like I need full bottles, since I just wouldn't wear them that much. Beige would be a really beautiful and unique addition to my collection but of course it's the same price, and buying two new perfumes right now really isn't realistic.

Saturday, September 10, 2016

September 10th

Listen, your girl here woke her ass up bright and early to attend the early access Sephora VIB Rouge event and it was totally worth it! I got so many awesome goodies, I can't wait to play with everything. 

Friday, September 9, 2016

September 9th

Done with work! I gotta wake up extra early tomorrow to go to a Seohora VIB Rouge event. It'll be worth it. 😭 Even though I have to go to work afterwards. I just want pretty makeup!

Thursday, September 8, 2016

September 8th

Feeling slightly disheartened about blogging and...people. Why is it that when I post dumb stuff (on any website) people are so responsive, but if I ask a question - any question! - it's like radio silence? I'd like to make a post about sexuality. I'd like to make a post about depression. I don't think people care. I know I do this blog for myself but it can be disheartening to feel like you're shouting into the void. But hey, can't stop won't stop. Blogger 4 lyfe. ✌🏻️

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

September 7th

Hi friends! I decided to go for a swim today. I have no idea when the pool at my apartment complex actually closes for the season (apparently not Labor Day, since no one yelled at me for going swimming...) and I wanted to take a dip before it closed. It was so incredibly relaxing! There was no one else there, and even though I can't really go underwater (contact lenses and bleached hair are both enemies of chlorine) I can still swim around. I lounged a bit too, but it got hot and I had no sunscreen, and I was thirsty. I also went on a little adventure to Old Hilliard with Brad! Nothing was really open, but we still got to look at some old stuff like a caboose and a church.

Perfume of the Day: Eau Duelle by Diptique

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

September 6th

I had a total do-nothing day today! I'm even wearing my glasses! I think I'll try and go on an adventure tomorrow, especially if it's not super hot!

I really want another cat! ;~;

Monday, September 5, 2016

September 5th

Ooh boy, I am having a sleepy night! Work was pretty short, but Brad and I went out for dinner (P. F. Chang's) and it just made me tired. In the good, cozy way. I sort of just want to cuddle up with Cas and fall asleep in his fluff. (I'm also a little hungry.)

I have a totally free day tomorrow and I have no idea what to do!

Sunday, September 4, 2016

September 4th

I'm rereading my old diary/journal/hot mess of a Word Document with Brad right now. It is so bad and full of teen angst and drama and it's kind of hysterical. And I wonder why I wasn't cool in middle/high school!

We've just gotten to the part where I was doing costume crew for my high school's production of Oklahoma! and I was in lust with basically every guy in the show. Cringe. At least I'm still friends with some of them!

Saturday, September 3, 2016

September 3rd

Sore throat again today. I'm thinking Monday or Tuesday for the doctor. Til then, YouTube!

Friday, September 2, 2016

September 2nd

As I am learning, knockoff Ramune will turn your stomach into a knot. So fun! I think this calls for a relaxing night. Sorry for the short post, but I gotta care for my tummy!

Thursday, September 1, 2016

September 1st

Happy September, cutie pies! I have a long weekend, so I'm really excited to relax! This week went by weirdly fast. I hardly remember it! Kinda bizarre, really.

Time to catch up on YouTube and snuggle with Castamere!

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

August 31st

Today was so wonky! I didn't work until 6:30! Work was really good though. It was my first time closing and everything went okay! I'm staying at Bead's house tonight because driving all the way home after ten is a gross drive. Too dark. Too sleepy!

Tuesday, August 30, 2016

Monday, August 29, 2016

August 29th

Well, I kinda did a whole lot of nothing today! I did do laundry, but that's about it. My apartment is really chilly though! I'm wearing a sweatshirt! I'm really in the mood to just cuddle up and sleep though, I think. Cas was being a bother earlier but he seems to have calmed down.

I don't really know what to do to wind down for bed. I've already watched a decent amount of stuff on YouTube today, so maybe I'll see if I can get into a book.

Sunday, August 28, 2016

August 28th

I am so sorry for the rushed blog post last night! Brad and I were planning on coming home right after the show but it turns out this production has partnered with Broadway Cares and they had some amazing perks, including a backstage tour hosted by the Wizard! So we opted to do that (of course!) and blogging got cut short. So to make up for it, here's my thoughts on the show last night!

Overall, it was a great production. It's changed a bit since I saw it on Broadway (mostly just minor technical things or ensemble costumes), but it was still really solid. Elphaba and Glinda played off each other really well and they had a sense of humor I haven't seen in previous productions. Neither of them were my favorite leads I've seen, but they were both excellent. I was especially impressed with Elphaba's riffs. I also really enjoyed Doctor Dillamond! Fiyero and Boq were good but neither was very memorable. I was underwhelmed by Nessarose and Madame Morrible. However, the Wizard was the most amazing! Going in I had no idea that I actually knew of the man playing the Wizard...none other than Stuart Zagnit, the original voice of Professor Oak! (You can hear hints of it in his speaking voice, which made me happy.) He seemed to be really into his part and brought a really fun energy to the role. The ensemble was great too, and the only technical difficulty was a slightly wonky mic at one point, but these things happen. Everything was choreographed beautifully and the orchestra and lighting was wonderful!

The backstage tour was so surreal! Since I sat in the second row when I saw the show on Broadway, I've seen a lot of the props and costumes pretty close, but nothing like this! It was really cool to hear about how the Wizard's mechanical head works, and how much insane detail (and money) goes into all of the costumes. Glinda's blue dress weighs forty pounds! (For once in my life, I was really good and didn't touch any costumes or props! Unlike some people on the tour...adults, even! Honestly, it was awkward when the Wizard had to tell off a forty-something lady for trying to take a costume off its hanger.)

Special bonus: Me and Stuart Zagnit!

Saturday, August 27, 2016

August 27th

Wicked was so amazing! Brad and I are gonna go for a backstage tour now! I will report back tomorrow!

Friday, August 26, 2016

August 26th

Weekend! Wicked tomorrow! I got shoes! I'm so excited!

Have a backwards Cas!

Thursday, August 25, 2016

August 25th

Pffffff, it got late before I had a chance to make a long blog post! There are two things in particular that are rattling about in my brain that I want to blog about, but I'm not totally sure anyone would care to read them, plus I keep blogging so late that I don't have time to get all of my thoughts out!

I've been having crazy dreams lately. Mostly involving this lady.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

August 24th

Oh, today was a mess. But I did it! Even though work was crazy and my head hurts!

I'm hanging out with Brad now, yay!

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

August 23rd

Kinda a bummer of a day. I had a bad headache this morning and didn't really get much of anything done. I only just took a shower like half an hour ago. So...I feel like I kinda wasted the day away, and I'm having a gloomy night anyway because depression is fun! I have a busy three days ahead of me but at least this weekend should be nice.

Monday, August 22, 2016

August 22nd

You know, sometimes you get your ass in gear and go to t'ai chi class, and it's fun. You learn some stuff and catch an Onix. Then you get a call saying your apartment flooded and to get your ass home. Because, you know, my apartments haven't flooded enough in my lifetime. But lo and behold, I came upon a smashed in front window and a soaked bathroom, carpet, and personal belongings. The supply pipe to the toilet burst and basically drenched everything. I have renter's insurance so I should be able to get some money back for the things that were damaged, but things like my signed Ninja Sex Party CD, signed book by Tim Gunn, and train pass from Dublin to Belfast aren't replaceable. (Hell, the ticket has no monetary value.) I'm just bummed because this is the third time there's been a water crisis in my apartment bathroom (the last two being at my previous apartment) and I'm sick of damp carpets, maintenance men in my house, fearing for Cas' safety (he literally could have jumped out the window and run away this time around), and fearing for my belongings.

Assuming my water gets turned back on in the next day (sigh) I just wanna take a shower and go out tomorrow before getting back to the work grind. I'm nearly over this cold (although I believe all the ibuprofen I took gave me a rash) and I just wanna be out and about for a little bit.

Sunday, August 21, 2016

August 21st

Happy Sunday! My cold seems to be in its final stretch, which is good because I felt like shit this morning. 

Just a few more days until Wicked!

Saturday, August 20, 2016

August 20th

My cold is in full swing! Sore throat is gone, but now it's all in the nose. It's was really funny before, now it's starting to get congested. I went out to the store today at least! I'm not a complete hermit!

Friday, August 19, 2016

August 19th

Guess who has a sore throat? Me...and Brad...I blame work. It was pretty chill today though. Now to find a snack that won't aggravate my throat and eat!

Thursday, August 18, 2016

August 18th

Work went well today! Yaaay! 

Brad has a Polaroid camera now. I am in love with it and also this picture he took of me and Cas. 

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

August 17th

I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for the first time today! How weird is that? I've had their food before but never eaten there. I had some amazing blueberry mint lemonade, and Brad and I talked about Nazi Germany. You know, as you do.

Now I'm watching the Olympics, diving this time around. I don't really like the commentators for this unfortunately. I hope whatever comes next is a little better.

Cas says hi!

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

August 16th

So I had a really awesome experience at Planned Parenthood today (getting a new birth control prescription), and it just fueled a fire under my ass to keep that place going strong. My nurse was incredible, as was all of the other staff. Everything was so easy. I can't believe there are people out there who want to defund that place. Even if you are anti-choice, Planned Parenthood provides so many amazing resources. (You know, like birth control. To prevent unwanted pregnancy.) They also screen for STIs, cancer, and help people in a safe and confidential environment. I just fucking love that place.

Monday, August 15, 2016

August 15th

Well, I was at work until 12:30 AM. That was a doozy. I woke up so incredibly sore, and I actually ended up skipping t'ai chi because I felt so tired and out of it today. (The fact that I had Taco Bell for "dinner" at 1:00 AM didn't help either.)

Tomorrow should be a pretty chill day though!

Sunday, August 14, 2016

August 14th

Guess who isn't off work yet? This lady! I'm so tired! And blogging from the bathroom. I'm also super hungry. And I dropped my birth control pill on the filthy floor so that's in my body now. 

Late shifts!

Saturday, August 13, 2016

August 13th

Work was insane! Tomorrow is probably going to be tiring's a stage set and I'm there til 11:30 PM and ahhh that's really late. What is this, my last job?

Friday, August 12, 2016

August 12th

Bit of a slow day today, so I'm kind of out of sorts. I also have my bedroom window open for the first time in awhile so I can hear the raccoons yelling and it keeps startling me. I really need to get some good sleep tonight but I fell asleep when I was relaxing earlier and now  I'm like...fuzzy, but not really sleepy. I don't work until 5 tomorrow though so I guess I can sleep in if need be, though I'd like to get an early start on the day if I can kick my ass into gear.

Thursday, August 11, 2016

August 11th

Y'all, I hatched a sweet Vaporeon today. Also, I think floating made me really sleepy because I've been out of it all day.

BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE OLYMPICS? I am so happy for Simone Manuel - first African American woman to win a medal in an individual swimming event, and she gets gold! Also, Michael Phelps is crazy. 22 gold medals. Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

August 10th

So my skin feels dry, but floating was pretty cool! Really trippy, too. Too salty for me, but a fun experience!

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

August 9th

Brad and I are going to a floating tank place tomorrow! I'm so excited! I'm gonna have mine play nice music and maybe I'll fall asleep even though I have a phobia of falling asleep in water because I feel like I'll drown. Baths are not very relaxing for me. But I hope this will be!

I'm watching gymnastics right now! I wish they'd show more of the other teams. I get that I live in the USA but there's no suspense if I can't see what the competition is doing.

Monday, August 8, 2016

August 8th

I was going to write a super long entry tonight (I really want to talk about sexuality!) but it got late while I was watching the Olympics. Whoops! Hopefully tomorrow I can crank out a solid entry. 

Sunday, August 7, 2016

August 7th

Bagel sandwiches and Pokémon adventures? Sounds like a damn good Sunday. I'm thinking I might see if there's any Olympic stuff going on that I care about and the go to sleep!

Saturday, August 6, 2016

August 6th

Work was exhausting today. People get fussy over the pettiest things. 

Relationship advice: literally communication, always, every time. Don't bottle stuff up. Talking it out is better for everyone. 

Friday, August 5, 2016

August 5th

Happy Friday! I'm feeling better today, just sleepy. Work was so busy! But I got hugs from adorable kids so it's all okay. 

The Opening Ceremonies are pretty good this year! I like the focus on the environment and sustainability. 

Thursday, August 4, 2016

August 4th

Welp. Guess who is having unexplained anxiety again? I don't like feeling this way. So shaky and agitated and nervous. I made a doctor's appointment made though. I'm so damn stressed about everything. 

At least Uzo Aduba was awesome in Steven Universe tonight. Bismuth!

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

August 3rd

Just wanted to show off my lovely painting of Castamere! It was done by the fantastic Kelly McGrath of Blood Moon Gallery Tattoo. 

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

August 2nd

I've decided to bring back an oldie but a goodie sort of post today...perfume review! Buckle in friends, it's been awhile. Since I adore the original Freak perfume my Illamasqua, I thought I'd give its very dissimilar flanker a try!

Freak (Scarab Edition) - Illamasqua

Even though this is nothing like what I would normally go for, I wanted to try it anyway. As it turns out, this is a pretty solid perfume. The ingredients smell expensive and opulent, and the bottle is absolutely a work of art as well!

This perfume is definitely dominated by plum and jasmine almost the whole way through. The jasmine is very reminiscent of the jasmine in Alien - very rich and sweet. The plum is dry and boozy, almost jammy but set off by the jasmine so it doesn't become cloying. There are other white floral notes dancing around as well, which give it a very gentle feminine vibe amongst the heavy plum and jasmine. I can smell the ylang-ylang and orange as well, but only faintly. They balance the perfume wonderfully. As it dries the scent becomes slightly drier and less boozy as the leather and moss come out. However, the other notes are still clearly there.

So, all in all, for being a perfume I would normally never try (I'm not a big fan of plum usually), I'm impressed. I find that it doesn't last very long on my skin, but I'm okay with that. I feel like it might be a bit too much if it was any stronger. I'll definitely revisit this in the colder weather too, as I feel it would be a great autumn and winter scent.

Overall rating: 7.5/10

Monday, August 1, 2016

August 1st

It's August! Whaaat? Leaves are falling! 

I didn't do much today so here's an excellent picture. 

Sunday, July 31, 2016

July 31st

Sleepy after a day at the science museum! I got to meet new friends and do science and also maybe catch some Pokémon. Check out Poseidon!

Saturday, July 30, 2016

July 30th

So Brad and I, being the masochists that we are, watch M. Night Shyamalan's The Last Airbender movie. It was so incredulously bad. I can't even explain it.

I just want this movie to not exist anymore. Thanks. 

Friday, July 29, 2016

July 29th

Guess who got caught up on Steven Universe? THIS GIRL. Ohhh I am so excited. I want more Jasper. I want her story.

Brad's here! It's warm! I'm so thirsty! And sweaty! Summer is great!

Thursday, July 28, 2016

July 28th

Work tomorrow and then a free weekend! Good for Pokémon hunting. Also Brad and Andrea (one of Brad's friends) and I might go to a museum this weekend, which sounds fun! 

Despite having a pretty productive day (I did laundry! Yay!) I'm in a bit of a mood, and I haven't felt particularly chipper tonight. I just want to watch Steven Universe or something but I'm watching that with Brad. So maybe sleep? I can't even tell if I'm actually tired. I have to get up early though!

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

July 27th

Guess who hatched a Ponyta today? This girl!

I have so much to do tomorrow! Mainly laundry. And cleaning my makeup brushes.

Cas is all over the keyboard right now. He typed "E" - what do you think he's trying to say?

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

July 26th

It is really incredible how thirsty I get at work. It's really hot! And no one ever stops moving or talking! 

Here is a fabulous picture of me being a fabulous blonde. 

Monday, July 25, 2016

July 25th

Happy Monday! I was at the salon for over three hours today but I'm finally blonde! Like, not shitty blonde! Don't use box dye, people. It will take three sessions to fix it and your hair will be orange. 

I gotta take pictures!

Sunday, July 24, 2016

July 24th

Motion sickness sucks, huh? Can't even play Pokémon Go in the car. (As the passenger of course.) Last night I felt awful. Everything before the carsickness was fun though! Brad and I went to a couple parks and we found Pikachu! Yay!

Cas is suddenly being really snuggly, and I'm still a little sleepy from the Dramamine I took (that shit apparently lasts 24 hours), so it may be an early night for me! Tomorrow is another adventure in my quest to be the best blonde ever, so wish me luck!

Saturday, July 23, 2016

July 23rd

Laying down. No more looking at phone in car or right now. Nibbling ginger candy. 

Friday, July 22, 2016

July 22nd

Really not much new to report today! Happy to say that I'll be able to get Monday evenings off for my T'ai Chi class, and also that I didn't get scheduled this Monday night which is when I'm getting my hair done. (Hopefully it will finally be the color I want. This process has been ridiculous.)

Work is so tiring! I'm not used to having to be "on" for such long periods of time, and it is such a high energy job. No standing still! But hey, I work right by the best place to get smoothies and bubble tea so I'm pretty good.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

July 21st

Today was a day. Rough morning. Work ended up going well though (albeit a little overwhelming), and I hatched a Sandshrew in Pokémon Go. Now I'm just kinda sleepy and sore. More work tomorrow! Gotta make that magic happen!

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

July 20th

Work tomorrow! Work Friday! Work Saturday! It's really strange getting back into the routine of having a job. The hiring process for my job has been so long. I interviewed over a month ago and all I've had so far is a "shift" where I filled out new employee paperwork and got a very brief tour. It just makes me anxious, not having worked in a little bit, to get back into the swing of things. There's also the financial aspect, but hopefully with time that will become less stressful. And I start T'ai Chi in a month so that will help with stress as well.

In other news, for some reason I am experiencing the worst period breakout I've had in like...years. I very rarely get zits on my chin and I've got like four right now. I don't know if it's purely hormonal or something new in my skin care regime that I tried, but I'm not happy about it.

Also, the RNC is a joke. This election is a fucking joke.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

July 19th

Happy adoption anniversary to my darling Castamere! I'm getting a painting of him done by the lovely artist Kelly McGrath to celebrate. She's a tattoo artist and I love her style. I'll post a picture of the painting when I receive it. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post the preliminary sketch so you'll just have to wait!

Monday, July 18, 2016

July 18th

Brad and I went for an hour-long Pokémon walk! That game really is great. I would never go for a walk otherwise, even a short one. Walking is boring! Unless there's Pokémon and a nice boyfriend. Also I got a revive from a Jesus statue PokéStop. It made me giggle. Resurrection is real, yo. In Pokémon. 

Saturday, July 16, 2016

July 16th

My hair is slightly blonder! Getting ever closer to the ashy color I want. Why is is so hard? Ughhh. 

Brad and I are going to the park tomorrow! Whee!

Friday, July 15, 2016

Thursday, July 14, 2016

July 14th

In the spirit of redecorating my room, I also decided to move my furniture around today. It was very heavy, and really hard work, but I did it! And I'm really pleased with how it turned out. I feel like I have a lot more space in here, which is great. Now I get to decorate and organize, which will also be hard, but I'm excited!

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

July 13th

Brad and I went Pokémon hunting today! It was super fun. I really believe this game is both physically and mentally beneficial. I also can't wait for Sun and Moon!

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

July 12th

Hello sweethearts! Today was a really good day. I slept over at Brad's last night and we had a really good evening, had a good talk, watched some Legend of was nice. And since it was my first time sleeping there since I "officially" moved into my apartment, it kind of felt like being back home. I spent over a month there and I had really missed it. It's just so cozy and homey and it makes me feel really safe and happy. I got the best sleep I've gotten since I moved in to my own place, and just generally had a really pleasant time.

In other exciting news, my local Taco Bell is a PokéStop and I caught hella Pokémon while waiting in the drive-thru line.

Monday, July 11, 2016

July 11th

I'm having a good night. I had a good day. I feel very content. And Legend of Korra is great. 

Sunday, July 10, 2016

July 10th

Work day number one went well!

Also here is a Pidgey I caught today!

Saturday, July 9, 2016

July 9th

Horseback riding was so super fun! And I'm barely sore! My butt just hurts a little. Here's me and Duke, my best buddy!

Friday, July 8, 2016

July 8th

So at my apartment, I can see my garbage dumpster from my bedroom window. Not a big deal. Kind of annoying on trash day, but so it goes. A week or two ago, I noticed some movement around the dumpster. I thought it might be a cat, since we have a few around here. However, this critter looked a little more plump. So, a raccoon, I thought. The area around the dumpster is fairly well lit, but not well enough to really make out critters in the shadows. Later in the week I saw two of these critters at the dumpster at the same time. I decided they were definitely raccoons. It was night time, there was food, they didn't look like cats. A few nights ago, Brad drove me back home and I noticed some eyes peeping out at me. I had to go take a look. As I approached, there were three sets of eyes. Three raccoons! And they weren't aggressive. One kind of crept away into the woods, whereas the other two just hung out as I looked at them and said hi.

All this to say, I had to take the trash out tonight. There was leftover pizza and kitty litter. In this humidity, that was going to be a bad smell. However, I knew there would probably be a friend or two waiting for me. I already have an irrational fear of dumpsters because I used to think there would be a homeless person living in mine and he'd attack me. Now I was faced with the more realistic fear that a raccoon might get me. So I walk my ass outside, clutching my garbage bag, pizza box and phone with the flashlight on. As I approach, I see familiar eyes. But they disappear into the darkness. No worries, right? Wrong. My dumpster has a slide-open side, so I took a peek inside, thinking there could possibly be a raccoon in there, and I definitely didn't want to throw my garbage on a raccoon. Was there a raccoon inside? You betcha. A mom and her two babies, actually. And they seemed perfectly content in there. One of them was casually scaling the wall. They weren't afraid. The weren't running away, but they weren't growling or being territorial. I stayed out there for a long time. People walked by and looked at me funny. What was I going to do? Risk angering a raccoon? Or hurting one?

And that's the story of how my garbage is simply placed near the dumpster, and not inside of it. I hope the raccoons like the pizza.

Thursday, July 7, 2016

July 7th

I really, really can't wait to start my new job. I have training on Sunday, and I'm not just excited because I like where I'll be working or because I'll have income again- I'm excited to have human interaction. I know that probably sounds a little bizarre, but aside from Brad, I don't know anyone in this city. I don't have anyone to hang out with, I don't have coworkers who I see regularly, and really the only other person I know is the woman who does my hair. (Hi Sabrina!) Lately it's been feeling lonely, and also somewhat stifling, to sort of be forced to have all of my social interactions be with one person. I obviously love spending time with Brad, he's amazing. But I don't see anyone else, except cashiers and my neighbors in passing. No one else with whom to have an actual conversation. So going back into retail (technically it's retail entertainment) where I can have lots of people time, as well as coworkers who will hopefully be fun to be around, is really exciting to me. My current "routine" isn't much of a routine, and since I've settled into my new place and haven't had Brad's alarms waking me up every weekday, I've been more lethargic, less likely to go out, and definitely spending more time inside. I'm excited to work in a mall. I'm excited for my job. I'm excited to start T'ai Chi next month. I just want to get to know this city and its people better.

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

July 6th

Hey-o, I'm 24 now! Today was pretty good! I mean, it started off with a dream where Jason Momoa asked me on a date. Then I got to sleep in, hang out with Cas, and then Brad and I went out. We saw The Shallows, which I really enjoyed and Brad did not. Whoops. We were going to see The Lobster but we missed it since there was only one showing today. My Japan Crate also came today, which was a nice surprise! I do enjoy me some Japanese candy. I hope you all had a great day too! Thank you so much to my wonderful friends and family who helped me have such a fun day. :)

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

July 5th

A very happy birthday to my wonderful mom!

I introduced Brad to Doodle God. I bought it yesterday after looking back on my old high scores and just had to buy it. And then I got Brad to play it. He made bricks like eighty times. I'm proud of him.


Monday, July 4, 2016

July 4th

So Exploding Kittens is a super fun card game. I've really missed playing card games! Ah, the benefits of having an awesome boyfriend...

Now time for the birthday rush! My mom's is tomorrow, and mine is the sixth! I'm excited!

Sunday, July 3, 2016

July 3rd

And it's night four of hearing fireworks all night. It's not even the fourth yet! I honestly feel bad for people who live around here who struggle with PTSD, because I can't even begin to imagine how bad this time of year is for them. Not to mention this is a holiday where we're supposed to be celebrating America and most of the people affected by PTSD that would be triggered by fireworks are combat veterans.

Anyway, today was a long day. I had a bad time at a Target store, which bummed me out because I've never been to a bad Target before. (I love Target.) Now it's almost midnight, and I'm still awake after watching Legend of Korra and some American Ninja Warrior. Brad's here too! So it's time to get cozy and get to sleep.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

July 2nd

This past week has been hard on me. My mental health just hasn't been where I want it to be. I'm tired more often, not sleeping well, anxious, and my depression is draining me. I've made the decision to totally change up my bedroom to hopefully improve my mood. My room just feels a little too cold, too stark, and not welcoming. I wanted it to feel chic and modern but it's just not homey. So I'm saying fuck it and redoing the decor, bedding, and adding some warmth and color. Here's hoping that'll brighten my mood.

Friday, July 1, 2016

July 1st

Happy July! I can hear fireworks going off right now. They're for my birthday, right? Not this dystopian nation where a twat like Donald Trump can be a presidential candidate?

Anyway, Brad's doing some sort of birth Hanukkah for me and I am so super excited about what he got me today! (Also, we finished season one of Legend of Korra tonight.)


Thursday, June 30, 2016

June 30th

I am so sleepy tonight! Brad and I are halfway through season one of Legend of Korra already! And I officially have my Ohio driver's license. My photo is awful, but so it goes. Sleep well, friends!

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

June 29th

Today was a weird day. The first half was kind of a depressive haze. Just very unmotivated and sad and grey. Later I took a shower and that helped, but like...ugh. Depression sucks. And adjusting to new surroundings is hard. But I think tomorrow I'll get out and do stuff and that should be good for me. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

June 28th

I am so, so happy that I got to FaceTime with my dear friend Lexa today! Today was kinda of a sleepy day for me (except when the maintenance guys came to replace my AC unit), so it was good to have a chat with my bestest internet buddy. Also, I met a cat today! There are at least two cats who live in and around my apartment complex and one of them came out of a bush today for some sunshine and snuggles! It was such a sweet little kitty. I think I also might have seen a turtle but there's a chance that it was just trash. I didn't go check. 

Sunday, June 26, 2016

June 26th

I'm really into the Avatar soundtrack right now. Anyone care to have a listen?

Saturday, June 25, 2016

June 25th

We finished watching Avatar! Watching a good TV show with someone really is a good bonding experience. Plus I like hearing other people predict what's going to happen. 

Cas is upside down at the foot of the bed with his mouth slightly open. I cannot begin to adequately express my love for this cat. 

Friday, June 24, 2016

June 24th

Gaaaawd Avatar is so good. I really love Iroh.

Brad and I are going to a giant book sale tomorrow! I have no idea what I wa t to get but I wanna get a bunch of stuff. 

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

June 22nd

Well, Aventus by Creed sure does last all day. At least ten hours of wear. It's crazy. 

I bought Korean snacks and a book about cats today. It was a good day. 

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

June 21st

Ooh friends, my perfume display is coming together so nicely! I still have a few finishing touches to add, then I'll post a picture! I really do have a lot of perfume. Like...more than 60 bottles. That's so many! I'd like to sell/swap some but I finally have just about everything in the case and I don't want to mess it up! Ahh!

Cas and I are gonna have some super snuggly times now.

Monday, June 20, 2016

June 20th

Brad is distraught of over the "Appa's Lost Days" episode. And I'm sad about Iroh. Season two is sad, guys. 

It is so hot in this damn state, what the actual fuck Ohio. 

Sunday, June 19, 2016

June 19th

Happy Father's Day! It's weird not spending it with my dad. We chatted on the phone though, which was nice. 

Brad and I saw Finding Dory today and it was super sweet! We also watched more Avatar, of course. 

Saturday, June 18, 2016

June 18th

It's very hot. And late. And my phone is almost out of battery. What a start to the weekend eh?

Friday, June 17, 2016

June 17th

Today was fun! I got to sleep in, Brad and I went out for dinner, and we watched Avatar! I'm excited for the weekend! 

Thursday, June 16, 2016

June 16th

Brad and I finished the first season of Avatar! Eeeee I'm so excited. I love this show, and it just keeps getting better. I can't wait for Toph and Azula! 

I might be going on an IKEA adventure again this weekend! Long drive, but it sure beats the $99 delivery fee. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

June 15th

I am so thrilled to be watching Avatar with Brad. We're over half way through season one already. It's really nice to share a TV show with someone and have them like it like you do. 

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

June 14th

I didn't do too much today, but I did get new sandals. Also, I want Birkenstocks. 

Monday, June 13, 2016

June 13th

I'm so excited! I'm finally the shade of blonde I've been wanting for so long! I kind of want to cut my hair now, but I'm gonna wait on that. Also, I had an interview today that was fun! Fingers crossed! ✌🏻️✌🏻✌🏻

Sunday, June 12, 2016

June 12th

Brad, Hannah, John and I all went to the Newport Aquarium today! And we got to meet penguins! And touch them! It was kind of magical. Here is a photo upon which you can feast your eyes!

Saturday, June 11, 2016

June 11th

I just read the apparent summary of The Cursed Child. It's sounds just like a bad fanfic. It's like My Immortal. 

Harry Potter should have ended with the final movie and perhaps an encyclopedia/lexicon. The play and the new movies are such overkill. I'm so over it. 

Friday, June 10, 2016

Thursday, June 9, 2016

June 9th

What an incredible evening! Andrea Bocelli was amazing. I'm so, so happy and grateful that I was able to come back to good old Minnesota - even though it was just for a little bit - so that I could attend. He did a version of Canto Della Terra with an alto singer/beltress instead of a soprano and it was phenomenal. And of course, Con Te Partiro was beautiful. There was even a special guest violinist who was possibly a superhero because her fingers moved faster than light, I swear. Overall, I am very pleased.

Row 25; fantastic set design!

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

June 8th

I am home sweet home in beautiful Minnesota! And it feels like 10:30 at night so I'm super tired! Also I got up at 4:30 to catch a plane...and I have Dramamine in my brain is foggy. But I've got a comfy bed so I'm pretty thrilled. And I'm of course super excited about the concert tomorrow night! I'm gonna take a nice long shower and not worry about a water bill and it's gonna be great. And then Friday it's back to Ohio! The flights today weren't too bad, both were about an hour long with a connection in Chicago. (There was a Jamba Juice there!) I'm not sure if I'll be able to take pictures at the concert (I don't even know where I'm sitting, actually) but I'll let you guys know how it is!