April 27th

Today was a weird day. Last night before work I was feeling inexplicably tachycardic, and then when I woke up today it was super bad, and I felt like I was on the brink of a panic attack rivaling those of last fall. Like, the depersonalization, the shaking, it all came back. And that made me more anxious because last fall was not the greatest. Things have calmed down a bit now and I'm just trying to take it easy for a few days. I just want this all to go away. I wish it had never started. It's made everything so much harder. I miss when I didn't have this unexplained anxiety and serotonin weirdness. I miss it a lot. Most days are good now but today was a scary reminder of how bad it was. Hopefully it was just a short term thing and I'll be back on track tomorrow. 

I hope you're all doing well too! I am sending warm hugs to you all.