January 14th

I wanted to wait until a little later to post because I'm currently in a bit of a funk, but I also just want to curl up and sleep and I'm worried I'll sleep right through my alarm, or wake up and not want to blog. I really don't like being in this sort of mood, where you just feel generally bummed out. Like, I know I don't have a legitimate reason for being this moody. But my brain is doing the thing where it's like, "Oh you have this insecurity? You were feeling bad about this one thing? Now you're feeling bad about ALL THE THINGS." And it's nothing that's going to change, it's not like I can go be productive and fix the problem my brain is telling me I have. It's out of my hands, it's just a thought. Still, this one thing leads my brain to invite in all the unpleasant visitors like loneliness and despondence.

But hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. A bright and massive improvement upon this mood!