January 31st

Happy almost Friday! This week has been so long. And it’s cold. But...I have a weighted blanket now! Wish me luck!

January 30th

It is really cold here today! But work was pretty busy, so that’s good. Right now I’m just cuddling Cas, so it’s a good evening. No mail today, so no weighted blanket! I ordered some gummies though!

January 29th

Dry mouth, anxiety, dissociation! What a day! Now I’m hungry but I already brushed my teeth! I’m probably going to have a snack anyway though.

January 28th

Happy Monday! I slept really poorly last night, so work was a struggle. But I made it through! I hope tomorrow is reasonably busier.

January 27th

Today was pretty restful! I took a shower, lounges around, had a big breakfast...then hung out with Brad! It was a good chill day. Also chilly. I wish I could sleep in again tomorrow! That’s okay though.

January 26th

Wow, I did nothing today. Like truly, I slept and hung out with Cas. Now I'm finally catching up on a bunch of YouTube videos. Hopefully I actually do a few things tomorrow...I gotta get out of my house. Get some food or something.

January 25th

Don't fudge your blog entry times kids, that's illegal.

Cas is out of his cone! And hopefully he stays out of it! He's doing really well, and he cleaned himself without messing with the spots on his back that were giving him trouble. I'm so excited and happy for him!

My head has hurt all day, so it may be an early night. Or I'll bum around in bed for awhile without actually sleeping, since I took a nap after work.

January 24th

Doctor went well...so sleepy time.

January 23rd

I spent like two hours of my day at the scanner. But on the flip side, I had pork dumplings at dinner. So things are pretty good despite a slow work day.

I’m in a perfume mood.

January 22nd

Oh, a long day. Bit of withdrawal, bit of work stress...then I napped way too hard when I got home. And it's cold as well! I've just now had dinner! This was just not the greatest day. But tomorrow is a new day!

January 21st

I'm a little chilly and anxious/restless tonight. I'm about to go take a shower to hopefully decompress a bit. Laundry first though. I have to be diligent!

January 20th

Today was a good, restful day. Some withdrawal stuff here and there but things are going okay. Mostly I napped, honestly. Oh, and the weather is pretty terrible. Cold and snowy, all that jazz. Cas has been supremely extra cuddly today though! Way more than usual! I hope that means he’s feeling good.

January 19th

Happy Saturday! My hair is blonder again!

Brad is playing Danganronpa. Watching him so far is a delight. We’re about to get to the first class trial!

January 18th

I got my hair cut again! God I love short hair. And now it looks more out together again. Tomorrow I go back for some good ol’ bleach.

Also, I have a headache. Kinda wanna sleep now I think. Tomorrow is an early morning!

January 17th

Well ouch! I had what I thought was an innocuous hangnail and now it feels like I tore the side of my thumb off.

This has been a crazy work week. So much new information in my brain. (And benzo withdrawal to boot!) I napped when I got home and I have a feeling I'm going to sleep in a lot this weekend.

Oh, but tomorrow night I'm getting my hair cut! It really seems like hair grows faster when it's short. I feel shaggy!

January 16th

All right, work was busy but now I’m relaxing. I love my Croconana plush.

Other than a work lunch this Friday, I have no idea what I’m doing this week. Ideas?

January 15th

Yesterday I accidentally forgot to take my Klonopin before leaving the house. I figured I’d just go home at lunch and take it, no big deal. Then lunchtime came around and I decided I’d rather just go to Subway. And when I got home after work I decided I might as well just wait til the next day at that point.

This morning I decided I was already one day off benzos, night as well keep the streak going. I brought the bottle in my bag just in case, and consulted some (benzo-recovered) peers online, and the general consensus is that I was at a good “jumping off” point — so tomorrow, I will skip my dose again. And hopefully I will skip it again and again forever.

The one timing downside is that this interferes with me starting up school again. However, I want to start classes without worrying about anhedonia, derealization, and all the other fun withdrawal symptoms. So, I guess I’m pushing that out...again. That really bums me out. However, getting off of benzos is a big deal and I need to take care of myself, so that takes precedent. Now is the time to let my brain heal.

January 14th

Happy Monday! This morning was stressful! Then I was busy in the afternoon and my eyes hurt from staring at my computer screen. Whoops. I was going to shower tonight but I think it’s going to be a tomorrow morning thing. Am I turning into Garfield?

January 13th

Ohayocon was fun today! I bought a giant Croconana and I also did my Bowsette cosplay again. I sort of wish I had an extra day this weekend, but it’s all good. As long as work is pretty active tomorrow, I’ll be fine! Gotta stay peppy!

January 12th

Well, Ohayocon is no MAGFest but it sure is a good time anyway. I finally got to play Museca! I’m so out of practice, it’s bad. But tomorrow Brad and I are going back to hit up the expo hall!

January 11th

Long work day. Training...hours of it. But my supervisor is a rad guy, and my new spot gets good sunshine, so I’m pretty happy anyway.

Brad and I stopped by Ohayocon today, and we’re gonna go back tomorrow. Because cons are a thing and I like them. And I may do Bowsette again because that cosplay is super fun.

My sniffles have turned into a tickly throat and cough. Get well soon, self.

January 10th

Another pretty solid day of work, aside from me being mega sleepy. I’m still sleepy. I didn’t even finish the YouTube videos I was watching. It’s that kind of tired.

January 9th

I’m sad tonight but I know I’m going to be okay. Work was good, anyway.

January 8th

Oh hey all, I meant to go to bed earlier than this. What else is new?

Back to work tomorrow. And yes, I miss being at MAGFest a lot. Things are good here though!

January 7th

MAGFest was fucking amazing. It really was. I am so happy I went and so happy for my friends as well. I am very sleepy though.

January 6th

Magfest was wonderful this year. I feel so, so lucky that I was able to hang out with so many awesome people. This is a good con.

January 5th

Today was a great morning, but now my stomach is acting a little funky. So I’m resting. I’m hoping I can make it out again tonight, but above all I want to take care of myself.

So yeah, it’s a YouTube kinda night.

January 4th

Long and busy day! TRG was great, and I’m sleeping in a third room tonight. Musical room chairs!

January 3rd

So far so good at MAGFest! I’m about to head down to a panel actually. Food is a struggle per usual...everything is expensive. Like...a bottle of water for six dollars? No thanks. Also I need my own space but that doesn’t happen at cons. Oh well.

January 2nd

A day of traveling and Dramamine makes for a very tired Kate. Everything went well today, my flight even caught a tailwind so it was pretty quick. I actually get to sleep in a real bed tonight too, not an air mattress! I was also so tired earlier than I took a nap just like...at a table in the hotel. A metal table, so it wasn’t comfy, but I sure was tired.

Tomorrow the MAGFestivities begin!

January 1st

Happy New Year, everyone! May your year be happy, healthy and fun!

I spent today relaxing, and then packing. I leave for MAGFest tomorrow! I wasn't able to attend last year, so this will be good. I get to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time! I'm really looking forward to just exploring and getting away from work for a bit as well.

Fair warning, since I'll be at MAGFest there's a chance that blogging may be a little short. I'll try not to let it be too bad, but I don't really know what my schedule will be. Hopefully I can still make time for some good stuff!