February 28th

Hi friends! Today was much better than yesterday. Better sleep, plus the weather was nice too. I relaxed all morning and then went out to dinner with Brad! I hadn’t seen him in person since before his birthday (he was out of town) so I figured a birthday dinner was in order. Now we’re just chilling out. No work tomorrow for me! Chores though. Definitely chores.

February 27th

Today was a weird day. I did a bit of looking into what the heck is going on with my sleep, since last night I was having the same disrupted sleep as well as waking up coughing or choking for air. I may well be snoring, but it has also been suggested that I have sleep apnea or something similar, as it seems like I'm not breathing correctly. I took a nap after work today because I was exhausted, and I actually had a dream that I couldn't breathe. It was terrifying. My assumption was that this had something to do with my benzo withdrawal, but I was unclear on how, as this isn't a reported withdrawal side effect. However, Brad was able to shine some light on what it might be- because Klonopin can act as a sleep aid and I take one of my doses before bed, perhaps it has been helping me sleep more soundly these past few years and I just never noticed until I started coming off of it. I'm going to have to talk with my doctor about it regardless, since sleep troubles aren't something I want to be dealing with.

February 26th

Today was a good day. I needed that rest. And some no-fuss food. Work is gonna be fairly easy tomorrow (most likely) too, and then Wednesday and Thursday are my weekend! I’m very excited.

February 25th

Oh hey, guess who lost track of time? This girl! I've been watching Lara De Wit stream and just got caught up. I'm here though!

This work week was brutal. I'm so grateful to have tomorrow off, especially since I've got a sore throat out of nowhere. I'd really love if that'd go away.

Bonus work fun: Super long shift this upcoming Saturday followed by an after hours inventory shift on Sunday night. So hype.

February 24th

What a long freaking work day. Again. And I work tomorrow too. I just want it to be Monday so I can sleep in and relax. Luckily tomorrow is a shorter shift. All this rain is making everything tougher too. Parking? All the way in Narnia today. I'm off to bed early tonight friends.

February 23rd

Today was a day for getting my hair re-toned at the salon. That's really all I did. But it's Brad's birthday! Send him love and birthday wishes!

I'm not super excited about work tomorrow to be honest. It's been a long work week.

February 22nd

Finally home. Another long work day. Plus a bad headache. Time to eat, relax, then sleep.

February 21st

Work was very long today. I didn’t leave until 10:30 PM. I am tired. I want sleep. Night friends!

February 20th

My Klonopin withdrawal is doing a number on me today. Very restless, anxious, and disoriented. It’s not fun.

But hey, I’m still hyped over how good Black Panther is.

February 19th

BLACK PANTHER IS VERY GOOD PLEASE GO SEE IT. That’s my message for today.

February 18th

I am very tired tonight. Hair appointment was good though. But I am...tired.

February 17th

Hoooo boy, I’m sleepy! I slept in today too, so I’m not sure why. I blame the Klonopin. Work was pretty crazy today too. So many people.

Hair cut and color tomorrow! I’m excited!

February 16th

Happy Friday! I'm just relaxing and watching the Olympics. I so wish I had watched the men's short program yesterday! The free skate is great too though.

I'm down another .25mg of Klonopin today! I'm at half a tablet in the morning and at night now. Eek! It's going okay though!

February 15th

Ooh girl, I did not do much today. I slept in like crazy because I didn't sleep well last night, and then I just sort of...ate and slept. I went to CVS, so that counts for something, right? My dinner made me feel super bloated though, so now I'm just laying in bed and catching up on YouTube videos. Tomorrow and Saturday I have work, and then Sunday I'm getting my hair done. Other than that, I'm super behind on the Olympics. Oops.

February 14th

Happy Valentine’s Day! Brad and I went to Panera and the pet store to play with birds. And I got to walk Ace! Truly a good day.

February 13th

My sleep schedule is a bit goofed up, and I'm lowering my Klonopin dose again soon which very well may mean it won't un-goof itself for awhile. But for now, I'm just excited to hang out with Brad tomorrow. No idea what we're doing. It was supposed to be a nice day, but now it's supposed to rain. Am I living in the UK or something? (Not that I would mind...)

In other news, the hunt for a new apartment is on! I'll be moving out of this place in May and plan on giving my two month notice tomorrow, so it's off to (hopefully) greener pastures!

February 12th

Well, work was slow today. Really slow. Thank goodness for fun coworkers and friends who bring you smoothies. I feel like I’m tired now, but also I can’t really get comfy. And my internet has been spotty tonight. I just wanna watch YouTube videos man.

February 11th

Olympics = good. NBC Olympic commentators = bad. I watched the team event for figure skating tonight and my god do I wish I could turn off Tara and Johnny. They're awful. Why are we making comments about a skater's fingernails? I do not know.

Work tomorrow! The weather is supposed to be really nice this week (except for Thursday) so hopefully I can get outside a bit. I need it.

February 10th

Work was long today. It was busy, and my knees were hurting. Also, being too poor to get food at the mall kind of sucks, because I'm usually hungry after work. Also eating the same thing every day isn't super exciting either. I want food court food.

I was going to watch the Olympics tonight and I just didn't. I got cozy in my bed because work was tiring, and I'm still in bed. I might see if something good is on now though.

Free day tomorrow! Whee!

February 9th

The Olympic opening ceremony was really lovely. I didn't watch it in its entirety, but I caught all the main bits. Good stuff. I'm excited to actually watch some sports soon.

Work was good. Not terribly busy either. I'm guessing tomorrow will be noticeably busier. Weekends, am I right?

Cas has been such an absolutely cuddlebug today.

February 8th

Yesterday was such a good day. Yes, it was snowy and cold but hanging out with friends makes my heart warm. I just love laughing over dumb stuff, chatting, playing games, eating cheap pizza...it's fucking wholesome, man. I love it.

Today was a slow day, as per most days where I don't work, so I slept like...all morning. And into the afternoon. Because why not? And sometimes binging YouTube videos all day is nice. It's winter. Let me stay inside and be cozy.

I'm finally feeling like my body is pretty adjusted to the Klonopin decrease, so I guess another decrease is soon to come. This time it'll be part of my morning dose, which I'm not looking forward to. But I'm also so ready to keep moving along with this process.

February 7th

All right, I'm not totally exhausted today! Today was super snowy and cold and I had to like, unearth my car from a mountain of snow. But I braved the snow so I could go see Brad! We ordered pizza and bummed around like a couple of fools. I love cozy chill nights with friends.

February 6th

I had such a nice date today! And I ate some nice quiche and watched Chopped After Dark! And now I am really freaking tired. Like so tired. I want sleep.

February 5th

Welp, I’m already tired. I have a date tomorrow. Sleep tight friends!

February 4th

Oh hey, that Suberbowl thing was today. I’m visiting my mom, and we decided to watch since one of the Eagles players and I went to high school together. (He’s a really great guy.) I guess I’m staying the night here, so hopefully I can charge my phone! Then it’s hopefully a clear day tomorrow to drive home!

February 3rd

So, work was a little hectic today. It’s Saturday. I get it. But other than that...today wasn’t too crazy. I did some grocery shopping. I took a nice shower. Cas is being cuddly. And that’s pretty much it.

February 2nd

I got stuff done today! Which is extra awesome considering that a.) it is v. cold and b.) I am possibly sick again?? My cough is back, alongside a sore throat...and I'm not happy about it. But I did laundry and paid bills and did my taxes, so...yay! I didn't make it to the grocery store, but I can swing by there after work tomorrow. Other than that, I've just been watching old LPs on YouTube. I sort of just discovered Jacksepticeye recently, and I actually really like a lot of his content. I've known about him for ages but I thought he didn't play games I enjoy...turns out his favorite game is Shadow of the Colossus. So I was wrong about that. Right now I'm on a nostalgia kick and I'm watching Undertale. That truly was a good game, and I can appreciate it again now that all the hype has died down. The soundtrack is so good as well.

February 1st

Happy sleepy day! My shift tomorrow got cancelled, so I guess I'm gonna have another chill day. And I better do my laundry, geez. I'm slacking. I am so tired so much!