February 2nd

Sigh. Woke up feeling nauseous, and I'm not really feeling much better now. I was able to eat breakfast and then meet up with my dad- we walked around the mall and then had some very subpar food for lunch. I only ended up getting a salad because I wasn't terribly hungry, and it was pretty mediocre. And the service was awful. We then drove around and I showed my dad some cool spots around the city, and then I went home. I was actually kind of hungry by then, but was an idiot and instead of eating real food had some snacks from my Japan Crate and a cookie, and felt pretty gross. I napped, woke up feeling gross, went to the grocery store to get more Uncrustables...and I still feel gross. I haven't eaten dinner, but I'm eating some applesauce at least. I just feel really full and bloated.

Now, because this is a blog of my daily life and what goes down, I am going to share something I learned today. However, I ask that if I know you, please not share this information with mutual friends, etc. My dad found out that he has prostate cancer, and he told me today. He is getting an MRI on Monday to determine the severity/size/etc. so right now I'm not too sure how to feel about it all, other than obviously upset, but it's hard to gauge how upset or nervous I should feel. I don't want this to be a "thing" where people are constantly asking me about it or if I'm okay- I want to cope on my own terms and reach out when I feel comfortable doing so. Thus, I ask that you please not spread this information beyond this blog, out of respect for me and my dad. Thanks friends. <3